Happy last Full Moon of the decade! It really feels like the last full moon of the decade, doesn’t it?! Like a real completion, ending and new beginning, a new era is about to emerge.
This full moon feels like a wrap up of the last ten years. It’s time to dot the “I’s” and cross the “T’s”. If you were like me you may have felt the urge to clean, cleanse and organize.
In a couple weeks, my oldest son will be turning 10. And it has me reflecting a lot on my life ten years ago. At the very beginning of this decade, I was 9 months pregnant and found out my husband (at the time) was cheating. My life literally fell to pieces as I birthed my son into the world. I remember going to a tarot card reader who pulled the Tower Card for me. The card showed a burning and collapsing tower with giant piles of ruble and people jumping out of the tower. It couldn’t have summed up my life better at the time. All that I had built was being destroyed. Little did I know that it would be the best thing that ever happened.
This last week in particular I have been struggling a lot with my health. My neck becomes suddenly immobile and swollen. So I listened to my body and just moved my awareness into the areas of pain…between my shoulder blades and neck. As my mind went to this spot, an image of knife popped into my head. I had been stabbed in the back. My husband’s affairs felt like being stabbed in the back, the ultimate betrayal.
As I spoke with my neck and asked what it needed, I heard her whisper…”to take the knife out.” I have been living with the knife still in my back, or at least the memory of its pain. I started this decade with heartache and loss and I’ve carried that in my back til this moment. I’m done waiting for a magical apology, or an owning of a horrific action. I’m freeing myself from the last energetic chord to my ex. As I imagined pulling the knife out, I seen myself walking to his house, ringing the doorbell and handing him the blood stained knife. I turned my back and walked away. It’s his to hold, not mine. What he does with it is his choice. I’m done living with the memory of that pain. I don’t need to anymore, I’ve done the healing.
I’m entering this new decade in triumph, on a chariot of courage, determination and clarity. Ten years after this treacherous time in my life, I’m remarried and have two more sons, a new home, a new job, essentially a whole new life. I have rebuilt a stronger tower, on a much sturdier foundation. I’v built a life that is actually suited to me.
The next ten years of my life will have nothing to do with that knife. It will be about my life that I created and all the new stuff emerging, manifesting and singing my name. To close my journey inward, I felt the need to heal the open wound in my skin left by the knife. I imagined my guides coming and doing some energy healing and sowing me up with golden and sacred wire. I imagined too putting my own hands on the wound and filling myself up with self-love and self-honour. This is what I really want to focus on in the next ten years of my journey. And so it is!
A FULL MOON SOUL JOURNEY FOR COMPLETION.
On this full moon I invite you to summon what is left of your learning in these last ten years. Light some candles, burn some sage or innocence or infuse some oils and take some deep friggen’ breaths. Really inhale. Really exhale. Move into that part of your body where the stuck energy and patterns of the last ten years are held. Where is it? What are the sensations that you notice? Describe them. Just move your mind there. If you were to imagine an image that best represents the old wound or stuck pattern, what image emerges? Or words, or shapes or colours? Use your imagination.
What do you imagine this imagine represents?
What does your soul need regarding this energy in you?
What would the image/object say to you?
What do you need?
Are you ready to release it?
Ask your wise body how she would like you to release this old patterned energy? Feel free to call in the elements of wind, water, fire or earth to help you. Maybe a loved one, an Angel, a guide or power animal will be your helper. Or maybe like me, you will just imagine pulling it out yourself. There is no right or wrong, just what is.
What energy are you needing to fill yourself with, having removed this old energy and
pattern?
Are there helpers, guides, stars, Grandmother moon…the water…anything that can help you heal the spot of the old.
Fill yourself with golden, radiant light and feel how lightened you are from freeing yourself from this pattern you’ve carried for the last ten years.
You are amazing!
And so it is!
Happy Full Healing Moon.
Much love
Crystal
xo
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