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Aries New Moon Ritual

Happy New Moon and the beginning of the New Astrological Year in Aries.  Woot woot.  The first New Moon in Aries starts another cycle around the zodiac and I always look forward to this moon.  It feels like another New Year feeling, a fresh beginning, a new clean slate.  Spring has begun to wake up and the ice in the river is cracking and the water is slowly starting to flow again.  We are waking up from hibernation and frozen-ness (I know not a word lol).  Life is beginning Her new cycle from death to birth once again.

This winter has been tough on me.  My family has been hit with a ton of sickness.  I sit here writing this with a current bout of pneumonia.  I have lost my sense of power this winter and it has showed up in my lungs, it has come as grief…as I can’t catch my breath remembering.

A circumstance of change threw me into a situation that I hate.  It brought me to my knees and back into painful trauma memories.  I felt like I was barely surviving only treading water and minimally keeping a float for months.  I have waited for the circumstance to change so I can get my power back, my well-being, and my sense of stability.  But the reality it is not changing for awhile.  So I must find my power again on my own.  I feel like I must rummage through a dark field and look for large gems that fell out of my soul, pick them up, put them in my basket and bring them back home.

So here’s the deal, this is a time of transformation and change and turning of the wheel and season.  Life is literally going to re-emerge in front of our eyes.

So plan 1…radical self-care.  I must strengthen my physical body.  I have 10 weeks left in this change of life and I am making weekly self-care goals and plans.  I’m arranging baby-sitters and potential outing/gathering opportunities.  This is part of gathering my soul marbles and gems back into my heart and body.

Plan 2…I have two goals that I want to complete and finish this season.  I will plan goals for this as well…one of them to start is to get ink for my printer as step one!  Its creating space and time and for the next ten weeks I feel called to focus.  Plan.  Start. Do.

What are your plans?

ARIES NEW MOON RITUAL:fortune teller

Light those candles, ignite your incense, invite over a friend or two and get out your paper and pens.  It’s time to dream, to go to the depths and beyond, the other worlds and invoke our lives with NEW LIFE.  So here we go…

Imagine that you are sitting across from A Wise and Loving Guide, a fabulous Intuitive/Seer and she pulls out a tarot deck.  She asks you flip as many cards as you feel you need.  What cards do you flip?  This is a unique deck, perhaps a never before seen deck and it has an image or word meant specifically to you.  There is no right or wrong, just what is.   Flip a card and ask the Wise and Loving Guide to give you a message with each one.  Just let what come, come and see what is there.  What messages do the cards have for you?

Ready, set go…write it out just float to the clouds with your pen.

At the end of your reading with this Wise, Intuitive, Loving Guide gives you a rock with a symbol on it.  What is the symbol?  What does it mean for you?  Grab it and pull it inward into your heart.  Soak in the blessing.

Grab a marker and a rock and make it come alive!!!

When you are done, imagine returning to your own body.  Grab a stone or rub your feet on the ground.

Happy Astrological New Year, and a year FULL OF LIFE and JOY!! And so it is.

xo

Crystal  .  As always I’d feel so honored and blessed if you FOLLOWED MY BLOG and Liked the Women’s Tribe Facebook Page.  🙂

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Friction & The March Full Moon.

The energy of this full moon feels a bit intense, wouldn’t you say? I feel restless, annoyed, frustrated, then ok and then frustrated or stuck again and back to ok.  Exhausting !

I pulled a card for this full moon from the Psychic Tarot deck and got a card I’ve never had before.  Kinda fitting.  

The card is called accelerated motion.  It feels like we are being propelled or pulled into the new even though we are in the midst of struggle or change.

It’s easy to resist change it’s uncomfortable and often we must walk through doors or circumstances that we don’t enjoy to get to where we want to go.  These transition spots are tough but crucial in the change process… if not pivotal and instrumental in the transformational success or not.  So breathe through them… scream through them, cry and let out the pain of the transitions.  Celebrate the good moments …enjoy the sun, sip your luscious coffee intentionally, love your babies or puppies, breathe in the fresh crisp air.  Suckle in the good when it’s there… even just for moments. Put on your bright lipstick and stick this out !

For me…my family has experienced a change where my husband is away working for ten days at a time .  I’m struggling to accept this.  I hate it and can’t quite move into just accepting it .  So today amidst my struggling resistance I sat myself down and asked spirit… “What is the gift of this six month change? ”

I heard… “we’ve created room for you to focus on you and your writing, to finish what you’ve been waiting to finish for years (my holistic recovery program that’s in the final stages).  This is the gift of this struggle … so own it and do it!  The time is now .”

 It’s busy with taking care of my kids but the gift of being busy is that my time is very intentional and scheduled. I’ve had to get my butt organized and focused  – two things I tend to struggle with when I have lots of time on my hands.

So even though circumstances aren’t perfect or even shittay’ …these challenging times create friction. Friction creates heat that can turn into fire and transform things in an instant.   That’s when we change… when we are so uncomfortable we want to!  We do what it takes to get out of the doorway of hell. 

If this moon could speak she’d say that she’s summoning up some friction to get things moving… like really moving .  She’s lighting a fire under our resistant butts to get going on the new path.  We are being called forward like never before…we must arise now!  The Sacred Feminine is howling to me so strongly that when I sit and write with Her, tears fall down my cheeks because my heart feels so full in Her presence .  

So embrace the struggle, the uncomfortable feelings, the frustration, the anger, even the sadness and let it propel you into forward motion .  Get intentional! Get clear.  Get organized.  Get doing and going.

Grandmother moon bows and winks at you even during your struggle and friction.  You are not alone, not even close, you are simply being called forward!

And so it is 🙂

Crystal xo

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Some Sacred Feminine Teachings for International Women’s Day.

goddess4In honor of International Women’s Day I feel called to share with you some basic teachings of the Sacred Feminine…a general flavoring of what it is…what it feels like.  And so it is 🙂

Back in my early twenties, I hadn’t heard of the Sacred Feminine, I had no idea what it was or what it meant.  But the words Sacred and Feminine lingered in my aura like a puff of smoke I really wanted to inhale.  My soul recognized them even though my mind did not.

I learned about Feminism and studied feminist approaches to counselling but Sacred Feminine was new territory.  It started with a book I read by Lynn Andrews called The Tree of Dreams.  Lynn Andrews is shamaness and teacher (Writer of Medicine Woman and many other books) her words, her stories spoke to me in a way that I was unveiling and discovering myself.  I couldn’t wait to get home from work and pick up her words and suck them into my body and soul.  They evoked a remembering in me, a filling of a deep hole that longed to be filled.  The wild call from my soul that had been attempting to dial me up my entire life finally found its’ way to my ears and I had no choice but to hear it.  She lead me to the trail.  I eventually apprenticed under Lynn Andrews for four years and became Earth Steward, Minister and Healer under her Sacred Feminine teachings from the Sisterhood of the Shields.  (This is a whole other post lol)

So for those of you new to the concept of the Sacred Feminine or those of you dipping your toes into the beautiful realm, or those of you swimming in the pool of the Feminine, I honor you all for expanding and remembering a consciousness the world so desperately needs at this moment in time.

For me….I grew up in a religion that had masculine/patriarchal roots that told me that my body was the place of sin and weakness and that body and flesh should not be trusted as it was prone to over indulgence and wild longings that could take over my character, morals and life.  As a sensitive, intuitive, strongly emotional young girl I didn’t know how to carry this teaching and exist with it in my life.  I interpreted it to mean all my emotions, my desires, my sensuality, my sexuality, and urges were sinful, wrong, all the fundamental, primal elements of myself were shameful and could not be trusted.  I was taught as most of us are in our current world, not to trust my body.  I became disembodied…disconnected from the most fundamental, natural, primal elements and internal guidance within me.  I wasn’t supposed to listen to myself, I was supposed to follow the pre-determined rules and keep quiet.

These teachings put me up against my own self and body, and for me filled me with the idea that I am not enough, I’m flawed, I’m unloveable, I’m wrong, I’m damaged and I’m weak simply for having a body. So I shut down, I controlled, I obsessed, I calorie counted and eating disordered my way into an unconscious expression of the battle between my mind and soul.  I caged my wild, feminine roots and essence away for I thought she could not be trusted,  I thought she was wrong for existing, I thought she was not welcome simply by the fact she was not acknowledged or celebrated or encouraged to develop and grow. I did not consciously know that this was occurring  nor that I even had a wild, feminine soul deep within me, I simply had a deep feeling of emptiness, a craving for something I could not put my finger on or fill.  I knew without knowing that I was missing something, I just did not know what.  I had a deep, dark hole and an ache in my gut.  I thought it was a character flaw and a weakness that I could not just follow the rules and do life and be okay.  I just wanted to be normal but knew I wasn’t, something was different in me…in my DNA, in my structure. At the time I thought it was a bad thing, a lacking…I see now it was a knowing I had not yet discovered.

As I a look back I see now it was my feminine soul, my wise, emotional, intuitive body loudly and boldly expressing that I lost contact to my feminine essence.  And in doing so I lost connection to my body, my emotions, my intuition, my creativity, my ability to be….  me.  I acted out this loss of body/soul connection as an eating disorder and it also carried with it anxiety and depression….all natural feelings from losing yourself I’d say…yes?!

When you least expect it, or barely notice, the Sacred Feminine howls to you and  begins to call you home.  Synchronicity occurs and She finds her way to you subtly….first through restless, anxious energy calling you inward, or perhaps even depression.  Or a struggle with eating disorders or weight obsession or too much boozin, trying to make you look at why you’ve been acting out your pain.  She continues to howl for you and sooner or later a book comes your way or a dream evokes a remembering or a class you take leads you to Her trail or you meet a gal who digs the Divine Feminine 😉 and boom the lightning strikes and you remember!  Your heart cracks open with ancient, soul remembering that has been around for thousands of years.

And in Her essence (The Sacred Feminine Energies) there’s so much to learn, so much uncloaking, and shedding and releasing what never quite fit you in the first place.  There’s a lot of removal of the masks and shirts and fancy jackets we put on in the world and a diving deep into our naked, raw bodies instead.  The shedding can be painful but its’ also sparked with so much inner excitement and inner knowing of something much deeper, much more primal and inwardly wild.  It’s felt by feeling full for the first time ever, like a tasting of what peace feels like in a cup.  It’s a feeling being connected and lit up like the brightest firework you every did see and knowing you found your path home.

Spirit comes through your body, your body is Spirit in form…your intuition, your emotions, your body sensations are messengers from you’re own highest Self and the Divine and you learn that you never meant to abandon the very body Creation gave you to discover, feel and sensually inhale all the luscious, vibration, sensation evoking feelings that every dam thing all around you could offer.  You were meant to learn how to follow your body’s lead as Sacred Messenger, not sinner, not weakness but Divine Guider/Goddess of your soul’s desires, your soul’s path, your soul’s must do in this lifetime.

Your body is like your soul’s compass on the path to soul completion and gift sharing in this world.  She will signal to you when it feels oohhhhh so good and when it feels oh so wrong.  That gut instinct that says no or something doesn’t feel right and when things just flow in the most auspicious ways.   Spirit is felt inside, in stillness, in the body, in excitement, in peace, in anger, in fear, it uncertainty….Spirit is everywhere, especially in your body.

So on this International Women’s Day I honor ALL women and the SACRED FEMININE in all of us (both men and women).  I honor your sacred body as a place to start the remembering. I honor all of us women for all the feminine qualities we carry and move in to the world….the creativity, the nurturing, the loving, the connecting, the igniting of magic and joy we do.

And so it is sisters 🙂

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It’s an Emotional Time – Write it Out :)

Lately, things have been tough on my end.  It’s been an intense New Year, filled with challenges, exhaustion and illness.  My son had pneumonia, my husband has been out of town working and I’ve been left to deal with the pockets of old trauma that keeps bubbling up from my past.

I have slept very little for the last six weeks due to my son’s (six months old) pneumonia.  I’ve had to “sleep” (I use this term loosely) sitting up with him laying on my chest, so he can breathe more easily.  His bouts of horrible coughing would occur anywhere between every half our to every two hours.  He is finally clearing it out.

I got pushed way past my physical, emotional, spiritual and mental limits and I did what I always do…  I did it anyways, I struggled, I didn’t ask for help when I should have and I landed in a hole of despair.  I’ve been addicted to struggle and pain a lot in my life, like it’s my norm.  Somehow it seems in my crooked thinking that it is noble, strong, and more badge worthy to struggle….badge worthy?!  What badges you ask….hell if I know ! LOL 🙂

Many of us are moving through some emotional intensity and struggle right now.  And what I’ve learned from my own is that we are being asked to do it differently, to heal in its grip, to let go…to lighten and free ourselves of the old stuck ways.

I put on what I think is my superhero cape and try and accomplish the impossible on my own…only to usually fall into an extreme exhaustion and despair and then resentment and a full blown pity party for not having help.  It’s my own fault, I don’t ask for it…I really struggle with this and I take the long, hard road that fills me with the most thorns.  Enduring pain became like a misguided map of strength for me.  It feeds into this wounded belief that I’m all alone, I only have myself to survive.  I’ve depended on it my whole life and yes at times it has helped but now it hinders my life.  It cracks open these awful, painful memories and emotions of abandonment and struggle from my past and I get frozen in the doom.  I leak tears and tears for days until I somehow snap out of it.  It’s time…I’m changing that old story!  I am not alone, I can count on people, I do have love and support from others.

To get out of this despair and exhaustion that leaves me weak at me knees, I’ve had to ask for help. I’ve had to pad my life up with support…getting a cleaner, exploring a mother’s helper or part-time nanny, getting babysitters, and that alone dries up the pools of doom.  I don’t feel so alone with support nets around me.

So let’s take a little emotional road on the page…yes?

 

EMOTIONAL PURGE ON THE PAGEwriting

-So what old belief systems are your emotions cracking open?  What is your current struggle?  What emotions are surfacing…why and when?

-What old archetypes/masks/personas have you used to survive that no longer serve a great purpose?  What patterns of thinking and behaving come from these personas?  What emotions are they masking?  For me it was superwoman/perfectionist and victim…they mask my fear for vulnerability….of needing help….like it will somehow make me unlovable and alone.  It comes from my past marriage when I was in a post-partum depression and I was ultimately abandoned and betrayed in my most vulnerable state.  The emotions of that time linger in my body…the devastation…the grief….they have been summoned out right now.  And it’s ok…it’s intense but it’s ok.  I am loved now…I am with a good man.  I am struggling yes but he holds and supports me in that.

Where, how, and when can you access love and support?

Are there images that give you hope and strength…as well as a sense of love and support?  See them…imagine them and send them into your body.  Feel them circulating in your body and feel all the strength, love , support and hope fill your cells and ignite and release the joy already inside of you.  

For me I see sunshine and rainbows, a tribe of women around me, ceremonial fires and circles….igniting alive what all fell asleep or burned out within me.  My heart expands, settles and softens in the presence and felt sense of these images.

 

And so it is friends 🙂

xo

Crystal

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New Moon & Mercury Retrograde Ritual – Weaving the Old & New.

may moonWe start this New Moon with a Mercury Retrograde.  It’s a time usually marked by new beginnings but with Mercury going backwards, it encourages us to look behind us, in our pasts to assist with the new.  It encourages us to look at our own past, to explore the old ways of being, our inner caverns, our darkness, our parts yet to be healed and the road we’ve walked.  It also invites us to reflect on the old, maybe old jobs, old relationships, old friendships or aspects of our lives so they can give us wisdom for the future.  This offers us new eyes, or old eyes depending, how you see it.

I pulled a tarot card for this New Moon and it is so fitting.  It is called the Spiritual Strength card from the Psychic Tarot Oracle Cards.  It says, “This card is coming forth to give you encouragement and remind you that you have the inner strength to complete whatever you have been working on.  This final Spirit Card represents courage, discipline, stability, and persistence.  You may be tired or weary from the struggle, but now is not the time to give in.  Instead, tap into all of you inner reserves for that one final push to achieve the desired outcome…”

This is quite fitting with the retrograde occurring just after the New Moon as retrogrades are known to cause some communication issues.  It is said not to start new adventures during the retrograde as they will be met with many challenges, delays, obstacles, struggles…  I’m in the middle of a large project and have been feeling a little stuck and upon this New Moon/ Mercury Retrograde I feel the need to sit with my past, to embody it, like it were it person and here what it has to tell me.  How can I blend the past lessons into my future, into my journey here, as my future, and this large project (a book) as it is taking shape.  weaving

How can my past give me clues and an answer on how to move forward now and onward? I feel like I’ve been trying to weave an immaculate quilt of a book and at times I get stuck and remember that I don’t know how to weave.  But this retrograde and New Moon allows for a return and exploration of the old, like it will open my memory banks and allow me to keep weaving with new understanding, new clarity, new ways of exploring and approaching what is at hand, simply by sitting with and combing through some old moments in time.

New Moon & Retrograde Ritual

So on this New Moon and Retrograde, I invite you to sit with your past.  Light some candles, some inscents, get out your journal and pens and imagine your past sitting beside as a person, a guide, here to teach you and offer you new insight into the present.  Ask your past that sits beside you in the chair,

“How can you give me some ideas on how to move forward?

What perspective do you have to share about my current situation or endeavor?

What would you like me to remember and carry forward with me as I keep going?”

Just set your timers for 6 minutes for each question and let your pen run wild with intuitive guidance.  Do not lift that pen and just journey inward, into the gates of the old where golden nuggets of the past will guide you forward and onward.

This month feels like a solid integration and weaving of many things.  In some ways, it feels like we will finish the quilts, or at least get clear on how to, it will be done.  During this moon cycle if we simply keep weaving, keep going, keeping pushing forward we will achieve our soul’s call.  Allow the old to be weaved into the new, like it guided the fibers home, into where the needed and wanted to be.

And so it is…

Happy Weaving 🙂

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