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Soothing Solstice Ritual

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Happy Winter Solstice from here in Canada! On this Darkest day of the year the Universe has brought me back to the teaching of the Grouse.  I have lost my balance between inner and outer self, between light and dark, doing and being.  And the grouse has puffed up her chest in my face, reminding me of her sacred message.

In her book Medicine Cards, Jamie Sams connects the grouse to the sacred spiral.   She asks us, “Analyze the way you move through your world.  How do you picture yourself in the act of “locomotion”…What word would you use to describe the way you move through both the material and spiritual worlds?…is your movement compatible with your greatest desires and goals?”  (journal prompts!!)

For me I’m like a chicken with head cut off, running around my busy life with my three boys and husband, always doing three things at one time, somewhat disconnected from it all.  I want to move slower, more gently and way more consciously.  I want to be fully present in the moment of what I’m doing.  I have almost come to a screeching halt in the spirit world and need to change this today!  In this moment I see how we cannot manifest this visions into physical form if we are not taking time to see the vision in the moments of still and spiritual world exploring.

The grouse is also an ancient symbol for birth and rebirth and is often represented by the sacred spiral as this is the way the grouse does her sacred dance.   The sacred spiral is  symbol of personal power, a feminine symbol that we used to paint on our bodies for ceremonies and vision quests, a symbol of visioning to the centre of creation, down the sacred spiral and towards the centre and still spot of a tornado.

This message fit well as I have been really exploring my energy lately and witnessing how much I push myself and how much I pull back.  And in my self-assessment I’ve come to realize that I’m really good at pushing myself and I rarely pull back my energy on my own accord but usually out of collapse. I typically go from a state of pushing, pushing, pushing to a grinding halt…stopped dead in my tracks with inertia and exhaustion.  The experience of pulling back is not gentle or subtle, it’s extreme and fierce. It’s forceful and out of desperation, a need for recuperation and a catching of my breath for survival.  Like everyone else I’m learning to exist somewhere between inertia and a thousand miles a minute and moving away from the extremes.  I do know this, for every action there is an equal or greater reaction.  So when we move to one extreme, there is always the opposite extreme waiting for our arrival.

So can we experiment and maybe loosen our ropes?  Pull back from doing so much?  I remember during my recovery from disordered eating, I forced myself to find the middle ground and find the luscious glow of mediocrity.  I wouldn’t run as far or push as hard, I would intentionally try not to be the best or on top but rather middle ground because it was gentler and more loving but it was deeply uncomfortable.  Feelings of worthlessness and fear of not being good enough oozed out of me as I tried to live a more balanced life.  I equated not being perfect or the best with failure even if it cost me my well being.  A new form had to be found.  This constant over-doing and busyness is a ridiculous and unhealthy way to live my life, no more.  The busyness of my life has moved me into exhaustion and disconnection.  My pulling back is to be more intentional and consciousness in the moment and way more stillness.  I need to make space for it like my life depends on it because I know it does.

On this beautiful day of darkness, I encourage us to find the sacred ceremony of intentional gentleness.   Mmmm…I want to inhale the word “gentleness”  into the aura of my life and let her soothing energy settle into my bones.  So celebrate this day of darkness by sacred acts of doing less, of being gentle, of soothing the soul by dipping into our dark depths.  Perhaps gentleness is letting the dishes dry in the sink or reading a good book instead of doing the laundry.  I found it to be quite playful to try and find balance in a gentle, subtle, loving way in my every day life instead of just pushing and getting through these few days and then falling ill or finishing my weak in a state of depletion.  Perhaps it’s even lighting up on the workout or spending the day cozy in fuzzy socks and Christmas sweaters by the fire.  Perhaps it’s lighting candles and infusing peppermint oils with the sparkling twinkle of Christmas lights around us.   Make today a sacred game of finding was to be gentle and softer, more being less doing.

SOLSTICE REFLECTIVE WRITING RITUAL:

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What is your relationship with Beingness?

 

What is your relationship with your own inner darkness and shadow self?  Do you welcome and embrace your darkness or do you push it away and positive affirmation yourself into by-passing it?

 

Do you spend time in reflection and contemplation? What supports this practise for you or what hinders it?

Imagine sitting with the great sacred being of Solstice, the keeper of the dark, cavernous portals of being.  You and this powerful gatekeeper are sitting around a crackling fire inside a deep rocky cave.  Can you just sit in the energy of this Being..feel that being ness, pull it in, let it soften you, soothe you, surrendering your guards.  Just sit and be, feeling Presence, feeling the warmth of the fire on your face.  Sit there and receive the gifts of Being.  Inhale the gentleness and calm around you.   Expand the calmness all throughout your body.  Feel it in your lungs and allow it to settle into your bones.  Savour in it for as long as you need.  When you are done, make an offering to the Divine Solstice being seated with you and when you’re ready, open you’re eyes and feel how you still feel the gift of Beingness.

Aho! And so it is.

Happy Solstice Friends 🙂

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How Illness Can be an Opportunity for Soul Work.

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Hi Friends

I want to share a powerful healing journey with you I’ve been going through.  I recognize we won’t have exact experiences but I hope somehow it resonates for you in your own life, with your own particulars.

I have been struggling with my chronic illness lately, having to do a lot of blood infusions  and dealing with a lot of inflammation, particularly in my large intestine this time around.  I am a believer and student of mind/body medicine and ways of the Sacred Feminine, meaning I know my body has something to tell me.  Illness and inflammation are always messengers from my deepest Self and health challenges are an opportunity for healing if we choose to explore it as such.

So after five days of struggle, I finally sit down and listen.  After some podcasts and reflections these questions have emerged.

  1.    How am I showing up for myself in my life?
  2.    What are ways I can show up for myself in my life more often and what does                 that look like?
  3.    How do I need to show up for myself and my soul more regularly?

 

Here we go…

I have not been showing up for myself in my life at all lately.  I hear my grumbling, tired soul and body and instead of tending to it, I’ve been zoning out, watching tv, going to sleep, keep busy busy busy.  My mind has been swirling with ideas, and new goals but I’m spinning in stuckness not putting pen to paper, just living in the land of busy mom and not showing up for myself.  That is step one, recognizing the problem.

I can show up for myself more often perhaps in little segments or tidbits.  I need to schedule it in during kid naps and block off at least one evening a week to do some deep soul pouring and get my course written/created.  In the meantime I can light candles, listen to podcasts as I clean or hang with baby, and keep moving my body in loving ways.

How do I need to  show up for my soul more often?  I think and feel I really need to commit to taking 10-20 minutes each evening, writing, journaling, reflecting, pondering, whatever that may be and check-on.  I just need to create me soul space in my life.  Writing is part of that for me and helps me move out my stuck thoughts.  And I need to commit like my health depended on it, cause my body is telling me it is!

 

In mind-body medicine and energy healing irritations with the LARGE INTESTINE have to do with, “crying spells, confusion, irritation, frustration, stagnation, and anger.  Thinking that you can’t do any thing right.  Wanting to run away and hide form the world.  Feeling that you are too different and that no one understand you.  Difficulty seeing other people’s point of view. Dogmatically defending your position in arguments. Extremely sensitive, thin-skinned.”  (The Secret Language of Your Body by Inna Segal pg.64)

I resonate with all of this.  I’ve been spinning, stuck, overwhelmed, lost, scattered and thus frustrated.  I have had crying meltdowns in my overwhelm, feeling like I keep trying to swim to shore but can’t find the shore.  I realize now I just needed to stop swimming, take a look and make a plan.  Take one step at a time and cut some things out that I’m not quite ready for.  Visualize where I’m going and focus on each pearl on the thread one by one.  I’ve been trying to hold three or four chains of pearls and I’m spinning in stickiness not knowing which one to focus on.

 

So on this lovely October day, I invite you go through the questions listed above and just free flow your pen to page.  Set a timer for 5 minutes and don’t lift that pen up til the timer goes off.  Invite yourself back into your life.  Please share your findings in comments.

 

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With warmth

Crystal

 

 

 

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Writing Wild – Day 3 of the Wild, Luscious Soulful Living Challenge

writing wildHere we are day 3 of our Wildly, Luscious, Soulful Living 30 Day Challenge.  (Join anytime ).

Winter is finally withdrawing her grip and allowing spring to slowly and gently emerge here in Manitoba, Canada.   As such, I thought today was a good day to write, but not just any writing, wild writing!  Get your  rubber boots on ladies and gents, we’re in for a fun ride…or walk 😉

I’d like to start by taking a walkabout outside.  Let your imagination stretch and walk out as your wild wolf self.  You are sniffing for an object…a stick, a stone, a leaf or a budding flower, any element of nature or the Earth that calls to you.  It can be a puddle or a pile of mud.   Just let the energies hit your nostrils as though they were rising up and calling you, pulling you towards them with their sweet smells.  You’re ravenous for soul food, you’re sniffing around for your survival. Let your your primal forces lead you to nourishment.

See where your drawn.  What catches your eye?  What do you notice?  If you move towards it or your hand reaches for it, you know it is calling you.  Which element or earth object is calling you loudest?  Where to you keep returning?

Once you’ve found it, if you can pick up that object and take it with you.  If you can’t take a picture of it so you can savor in its sweet memory as we write with its’ energies. Always thank the Earth Mother for her offering to you, send some loving energy from your hands down towards Her or even leave a strand of your hair as an offering to her.

Once back inside, get yourself seated, able to write and ready to take an imaginative journey.  Have your pen and paper and if you’re up for it light a candle and some incense.

Close your eyes and hold the object your found in your hands or in your mind’s eye if you took a picture of it.  Feel its energy and imagine it held its own spirit, it was alive with energy.  Imagine this were a helper spirit, sent to help you just like a fairy or angel might assist you. It’s been sent your way to share its energies with you and gift you a message.  Really absorb and feel it with each fiber of your being.

Wild Writing Prompts.  – no thinking just writing!  Set your pen and gooooo………..

Everything is energy, everything is alive.  Feel it, indulge in the elements, ignite your senses. Connect to the world around you.  Everything is of you and you are of everything.  Love and life is everywhere, sniff it in!!

– Why did you choose this object?  How did it call to you?

– What does the energy of your alive object feel like? Imagine it were a Sacred Being, an alive person, what would you say you feel about the energy of this soul? What are its’ traits?

– Imagine this object could speak to you, what would it say?

– How does this alive object reflect an element of yourself?

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