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Change the Energy Rituals for the November New Moon.

Happy New Moon in the sign of Scorpio. This moon is about death, rebirth and transformation and man oh man is the Universe calling us to shake things up. For many of us we have been waiting for new roads and paths to open (and they will) but as the transition time carries on we may be falling into old thoughts and beliefs.

“This is never going to work out”, “things are never going to change”.

Here’s my virtual hand smack your hand saying stop that! ūüėĀ

Ok… Let’s stop that old game . New mantras and new visions are needed. Write down what you want and close your eyes and really see yourself doing it. Feel what it feels like to be doing it. Where do you feel it? What are you feeling ??

Some of us hit pockets of despair or depression or plain old “I can’t do this one more day” knowing. Good! That’s the shit that makes us move and change and transform us from the stuckness. It’s what helps us get the wheel out of the rut .

So on this New Moon let’s really focus on changing up the energy . Here are a few (or more ) ideas to help sweep out old energy or transform it.

1) Burn sage in all corners of your house . Or if you don’t have … open the windows and imagine doing a golden light wash all over your home swooping the entire area!

2) Change your furniture around or put your Christmas tree (if you use one ) in a new spot this year.

3) Purge the old. Clean the closets out, the junk drawer, the fridge. Get the old out so the new energies can come in.

4) Try something brand new…a new food… a new restaurant … a new class… a new route to work. Shake up the old way.

5) Invite the Sacred and Holy into your everyday . Make mundane tasks like acts of prayer. Light some candles while you do dishes or while you eat. Light some incents and dim the lights. Make the feel of your home cozy. Put on your diffusers with your oils. Put up your Christmas or holiday lights and enjoy the sparkle and colours. Feel the sacred in the everyday.

6). Change up your routine. Do something fun on random Tuesday nights. For for tacos or wings or a concert or coffee and dessert . Just do something different.

I wish you all fun and joy as we shake up the old energy so it can transform gloriously into the new we have been waiting for .

And so it is my friends. As always if be honoured if you feel called to FOLLOW the BLOG for Moon rituals and self connection activities.

With warmth and fun excitement in moving energy.

Xo

Crystal

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Fall Equinox – Letting the Old Burn & Die

equinoxAhhh….the Fall Equinox. ¬†Feels refreshing and yet a bit torturous hehe. ¬†Perhaps it’s a karmic joke, a funny, poke in the belly to wake us up.

I have been moving down the spiral path into the depths of my wounds, into the dark, heavy, slick, sludge and down into the root. ¬†It is bashing me around. ¬†I have come face to face with it all. ¬†Face to face with the original fear, the original source of pain that created oh so many masks and defenses but the mother of all, she and I are intertwined. ¬†Perhaps I thought she was my original nature, that Strong Independent Woman Who Don’t Need Anybody and wears warrior armor. ¬†With this armor I didn’t have to fully trust anyone, I didn’t have to place my sweet, sensitive, fragile heart in their hands. ¬†My fierceness beckons in her sword and I thought I was her. I though she was my Core. ¬†But she has always been my protector, not my original nature and I did not know.

In her article Fall Equinox Brings Kali and the Burning of the Old Self ¬†¬†Jessica Hesser writes…(¬†http://www.rebellesociety.com/2014/09/19/fall-equinox-brings-kali/),

In The Encyclopedia of Myths, Barbara Walker tell us that,

“Tantric worshippers of Kali thought it essential to face her Curse, the terror of death, as willingly as they accepted Blessings from her beautiful, nurturing, maternal aspect.

For them, wisdom meant learning that no coin has only one side: as death can’t exist without life, so also life can’t exist without death.“

And so you must do the same. Have the courage and endurance to face what must die in you, and the rewards will be unparalleled.

HAVE THE COURAGE AND ENDURANCE TO FACE WHAT MUST DIE IN YOU…this is what the Universe is calling of me. ¬†I have been summoned into the gates of death. ¬†It is fierce and raw like running through the woods naked on a cool, crisp, raging rain storm in the middle of November. ¬†I am wet with tears, cold with grief and yet I still run for my survival. ¬†I am a fighter, a warrior of spirit and I head the call of the Great Mother.

I’m having to feel the fear in my cells and release it. I’m having to shriek out the anger, the grief and the despair of having my heart pierced before, so the shackles of betrayal and abandonment release my heart from the cage of fear. ¬†My soul, my heart, my highest Nature seeks love…seeks Trust. ¬†To trust the Masculine is to shed my battle sword and my I don’t need anyone chest protection. ¬†To take the hand of my Beloved and walk beside him, to surrender into trust and allow him to protect me, to lead me toward Love.

I have fought hard for Feminine Rights, for equilibrium, for balancing.  What I did not realize was that I tried to become masculine in order to try and reach Feminine Equality.  Now my body,my source, calls for the removal of this mask, this defense and allow the Feminine and Masculine to unite.  I am unsure if I can fully trust for the Masculine has hurt my core, Sacred Feminine parts deeply.  The wound, the memory of the old ways of dominance in my many lifetimes of painful memories lurk in my blood and yet I realize the only way to heal this original union is to fully trust, to take his hand and let him be my protector so he can fulfill his masculine nature.  I used to think allowing him to lead was submissive and I would not allow this.  I would never let a man lead me.  I would lead, I would dominate.  I would be warrior in our relationship and I thought that was me, my Core, but it was defense, my protection because I did so out of fear, not trust, not love but out of the memories of hurt.

Then one of my Native Elders looked me in the eye and said, ” A man stands in front of you, not because he is better than you, not because he is trying to dominate you but because as Woman, you are most Sacred. You are carrier of life and his job is to protect you, to take care of you, to honor your Sacred by standing in front of you and making sure the path is clear.” ¬†

Tear drops!!!

This is has been so hard for me to trust. ¬†I have been so afraid to be dominated I have never let a man take the lead or role of protector for I took it myself. ¬†I did not trust his Warrior Heart. ¬†And now I have found a true man that I know loves and protects my heart. ¬†So here I am face to face with my shadow, my old wound, the fear of being taken control over, dominated, silenced, submissive and powerless. ¬†And I look to that young girl in me and tell her to look at this sweet man…he is love, he is trust, he is the Sacred Masculine in form. ¬†He is not the others. My job is to be love…armor-less, just love and trust and I allow my tender, vulnerable heart to be placed in his hands for he is seeking to fulfill his original nature of protector and provider. ¬†All I have to do is let him, I don’t need to be everything to myself, I can allow help and love in. ¬†And in doing so, I am moved fully into my authenticity, my sacred vulnerability and my sweet, tender, powerful Feminine nature. ¬†I move into myself by allowing him to move into his self.

And so on this Equinox, this time of balance and sacred union between light and dark, between the Masculine and Feminine, I grab his hand and trust his lead to carry my Sacred Heart.  I drop my armor and put the sword in my belt for I am loved when I allow love in.

What are you letting go of, what can you let die so life and love can move in?

Burn it away in a Sacred Fire on this special night. ¬†Burn it away, write it down and release it to the wind or fire. ¬†Grab your loved one, your family, your sister, your friends and gather to release and let the old die. ¬†Sip on some luscious fall drinks, apple cider, hot cocoa, cinnamon tea or even some lovely vino. ¬†And let that shit go…

And so it is….

Crystal

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7 Simple Rituals to Harness the Energy of this Full Moon

cleansing full moonAhhh….the full moon. ¬†Perhaps the right word is eeeekk! ¬†Intensity this month, sorting through our wounds, our darkness, or shadow selves and allowing it all to cleanse away by swimming through it.

In the last day or so I have felt a strong need to cleanse my house. ¬†I’ve smudged it and used my rattles to break up all the stuck, stagnant, heavy energy. ¬†I’ve even had to re-arrange some furniture because the energy still felt heavy as it was. ¬†I sorted through old papers and burned away all old ideas, and extra stuff I didn’t tend to. ¬†I’m clearing the way for clarity.

This moon cycle has been intense. ¬†We are still going through Venus retrograde and purifying ourselves from our stuff yet unhealed. ¬†More action is needed, we must really focus now. ¬† I drew two tarot cards for this full moon and they were “Conflict & Defeat” as well as “Suffering in Silence”. ¬†Heavy stuff folks.

For me I’ve been struggling with health issues for over a year and half now. ¬†I get daily blood infusions and recently paid for some Lyme Disease testing. ¬†It came back negative even though I felt for sure it would be positive. ¬†Not that I wanted Lyme Disease, but I wanted an underlying diagnosis to help clear up whatever the heck is causing my immune system to be so out of whack.

I felt defeated, deflated and saddened for a good solid day. ¬†Then the next day I was driving and just heard the winds whisper ever so silently, ” just allow life to be as it is for today.” ¬†Sometimes I try so hard to find a solution, to get better, to fight it, to change the circumstance rather than just accepting that right now, at this moment I can’t change it. ¬†A surrender happened, a softening, an allowing of what is for right now. ¬† I could just let it be there. Maybe I simply need to be going through this right now. ¬†It doesn’t mean I’m giving up hope for change or healing in the future, even near future, it just means for today, right now, I accept what is. ¬†I can let go of my reaching hand for something different in this moment and find the beauty of the right now. ¬†There’s a Divine Trust in this, an allowing of what is as the Universe and Cosmos wish. ¬†It’s a surrender, a ¬†shedding of control of how I think it should be and an allowing of a process that seems to need to occur. ¬†And you know, I’ve found myself on another path with all this too!

What if things are perfectly imperfect as they are meant to be in this moment?

As I was writing this piece, my son picked a tarot card and it was Transformation. ¬†“Death of an old way of thinking and believing must occur before you can move forward on your new path. ¬†Transformation is all about ebb and flow of life cycles. Nothing in this life remains motionless; everything is on its way to somewhere.”

So on this Full Moon, this Supermoon, surrender to what is.  Feel it in the moment, just allow whatever is there.  And let it ebb and flow.  Take some time to sit with what is and allow it to float away like a cloud in the night sky.

7 Ritual Ideas to cleanse away and simultaneously ignite the new for this full moon.

1)Burn old papers you no longer need and file and organize what you do need.  No more chaos.

2)Clean out drawers, closets, junk drawers etc.,

3)Change your furniture around.  Move some plants or pictures around.  Rotate the bed in a new position.  Anything to change it up.

4)Smudge your home or open up as many windows as possible and put some oil on your screens so the wind sweeps through and cleanses out your home as she blows through it.

5)Have an Epsom Salt bath with any essential oils of your choosing. ¬†Cleanse out your body, detox, let go…

6) After you’ve cleansed the old, write out the new. ¬†Focus what you want. ¬†Put some dates on it, some timelines and action plans. ¬†Really focus here. ¬†Make a collage, a vision board, pull out images from magazines that spark you soul or call to you in some way. What is being revealed? ¬†Gather your friends for an evening of vision boarding and inspire and encourage each other. ¬†Have everyone bring 5 magazines and sort through them all. ¬†Pull out words, images, colors that excite your senses.

7) Have a fire, throw in some sage and cedar.  Do something creative and fun.  Do what excites you, what is your passion?  What gives you joy?  Is it hosting a family dinner?  Is it painting?  Is it swimming?  Do what gives you goosebumps.

And so it is!!

Happy Full Moooooon!!

xo Crystal

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To Whom It May Concern – I have a Week to Live (A Writing Exercise)

Hi Friends. ¬†I’m doing this writing class right now and the just of the question is…Write a letter or a story or a poem in your last week to live. ¬†What would you say? ¬†What words do you want to leave behind…

joyThis is what I said….

To Whom it May Concern,

Turns out I have about a week to live.  Life kind of flashes before your eyes as you approach death’s door and it’s interesting to think about what you’ll take with you to the other side.

Much of my teen years and twenties were spent trying to become something.  I felt this pull to do better, do more, achieve, achieve, achieve like it were a drug that fed my worth and my ability live life.  I sought out titles and medals for accolades because it was the only way I knew how to fill my bucket.  I needed things, recognition, celebration and external success to feel good enough.  It’s a cultural phenomenon so who can really blame me.

But in my late twenties and early thirties I learned a different way of being.¬†¬† Life knocked me down off my high horse so I could see the beauty of the underworld.¬† ¬†I learned the gift of just Being…and to unite with my wild, colorful, tribal roots.¬† It was my connection to my wild soul that was really the secret to life all along.¬† I felt full for the first time ever, not from the outside but from within.¬† It wasn‚Äôt a desperate reaching for something outside of me in order to feel loved or good enough, it was a natural oozing out of my Source, a release, a letting go of all the shiny beams I was holding inside.¬† I didn‚Äôt have to do a darn thing.¬† I beamed light because I was light.¬† I had danced in it, swirled through the hoops of its‚Äô company and I leaked out golden rays of life in my world.¬† My bucket was finally full because I released who I really was out of me and into the outside world.¬† It never really was about becoming anything, but Being myself at the Sacred.¬† It was about enjoying the Sacred in every possible moment in my life, even if it were doing dishes or running a cleansing bath for my son.¬† I approached each task like it were an active prayer.

I learned to soak in the energy, the magic of the moment like were a sponge and ring it out into my world.  I absorbed all life had to offer me by feeling it and rolling in it like it were a colorful explosion of dust on the ground.  My pen was my gateway between the worlds, inner reflection and outer resolution, it were really a life line to my Divine.  I have nothing left unsaid, unfelt or untouched for I have loved every moment, even when I didn’t think I did.  I see how all the crooked trails, all the painful sorrows, were all part of this life’s equation, to come to the answer of a life filled with love, Being and connected to my wild.

So as I sit and reflect what I will take with me to the other side it is not roles or titles or accomplishments, it is my son’s smile, the pulsating high of endorphins that rattle my chest because of the love I have experienced with my husband.  I will take the still moments when the moon shone brightly in the dark night sky, or the gift I received in seeing the beautiful crystallized snowflake on my dog’s nose.  I will take the soft caress of the wind on my face and the warmth of the sun against my cold skin.  I will bring home the magic that this life had to offer and I will gallop on my wild horse to the gates of the other world.  Look for a trail of golden dust, it shall sparkle in the sky as I paint colorful clouds all the way there.

For whoever reads this note, this last little bit of sharing I have left, start Being in your life. Focus less on becoming something and plant your feet right in the sacred moment, the exact pearl you are standing in the thread of life and indulge joyously in the crisp, juicy taste of its magic.  It is Divine all around, soak it in.  Life is art baby, go live it!

And so it is.

Xo

Crystal

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