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Soothing Solstice Ritual

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Happy Winter Solstice from here in Canada! On this Darkest day of the year the Universe has brought me back to the teaching of the Grouse.  I have lost my balance between inner and outer self, between light and dark, doing and being.  And the grouse has puffed up her chest in my face, reminding me of her sacred message.

In her book Medicine Cards, Jamie Sams connects the grouse to the sacred spiral.   She asks us, “Analyze the way you move through your world.  How do you picture yourself in the act of “locomotion”…What word would you use to describe the way you move through both the material and spiritual worlds?…is your movement compatible with your greatest desires and goals?”  (journal prompts!!)

For me I’m like a chicken with head cut off, running around my busy life with my three boys and husband, always doing three things at one time, somewhat disconnected from it all.  I want to move slower, more gently and way more consciously.  I want to be fully present in the moment of what I’m doing.  I have almost come to a screeching halt in the spirit world and need to change this today!  In this moment I see how we cannot manifest this visions into physical form if we are not taking time to see the vision in the moments of still and spiritual world exploring.

The grouse is also an ancient symbol for birth and rebirth and is often represented by the sacred spiral as this is the way the grouse does her sacred dance.   The sacred spiral is  symbol of personal power, a feminine symbol that we used to paint on our bodies for ceremonies and vision quests, a symbol of visioning to the centre of creation, down the sacred spiral and towards the centre and still spot of a tornado.

This message fit well as I have been really exploring my energy lately and witnessing how much I push myself and how much I pull back.  And in my self-assessment I’ve come to realize that I’m really good at pushing myself and I rarely pull back my energy on my own accord but usually out of collapse. I typically go from a state of pushing, pushing, pushing to a grinding halt…stopped dead in my tracks with inertia and exhaustion.  The experience of pulling back is not gentle or subtle, it’s extreme and fierce. It’s forceful and out of desperation, a need for recuperation and a catching of my breath for survival.  Like everyone else I’m learning to exist somewhere between inertia and a thousand miles a minute and moving away from the extremes.  I do know this, for every action there is an equal or greater reaction.  So when we move to one extreme, there is always the opposite extreme waiting for our arrival.

So can we experiment and maybe loosen our ropes?  Pull back from doing so much?  I remember during my recovery from disordered eating, I forced myself to find the middle ground and find the luscious glow of mediocrity.  I wouldn’t run as far or push as hard, I would intentionally try not to be the best or on top but rather middle ground because it was gentler and more loving but it was deeply uncomfortable.  Feelings of worthlessness and fear of not being good enough oozed out of me as I tried to live a more balanced life.  I equated not being perfect or the best with failure even if it cost me my well being.  A new form had to be found.  This constant over-doing and busyness is a ridiculous and unhealthy way to live my life, no more.  The busyness of my life has moved me into exhaustion and disconnection.  My pulling back is to be more intentional and consciousness in the moment and way more stillness.  I need to make space for it like my life depends on it because I know it does.

On this beautiful day of darkness, I encourage us to find the sacred ceremony of intentional gentleness.   Mmmm…I want to inhale the word “gentleness”  into the aura of my life and let her soothing energy settle into my bones.  So celebrate this day of darkness by sacred acts of doing less, of being gentle, of soothing the soul by dipping into our dark depths.  Perhaps gentleness is letting the dishes dry in the sink or reading a good book instead of doing the laundry.  I found it to be quite playful to try and find balance in a gentle, subtle, loving way in my every day life instead of just pushing and getting through these few days and then falling ill or finishing my weak in a state of depletion.  Perhaps it’s even lighting up on the workout or spending the day cozy in fuzzy socks and Christmas sweaters by the fire.  Perhaps it’s lighting candles and infusing peppermint oils with the sparkling twinkle of Christmas lights around us.   Make today a sacred game of finding was to be gentle and softer, more being less doing.

SOLSTICE REFLECTIVE WRITING RITUAL:

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What is your relationship with Beingness?

 

What is your relationship with your own inner darkness and shadow self?  Do you welcome and embrace your darkness or do you push it away and positive affirmation yourself into by-passing it?

 

Do you spend time in reflection and contemplation? What supports this practise for you or what hinders it?

Imagine sitting with the great sacred being of Solstice, the keeper of the dark, cavernous portals of being.  You and this powerful gatekeeper are sitting around a crackling fire inside a deep rocky cave.  Can you just sit in the energy of this Being..feel that being ness, pull it in, let it soften you, soothe you, surrendering your guards.  Just sit and be, feeling Presence, feeling the warmth of the fire on your face.  Sit there and receive the gifts of Being.  Inhale the gentleness and calm around you.   Expand the calmness all throughout your body.  Feel it in your lungs and allow it to settle into your bones.  Savour in it for as long as you need.  When you are done, make an offering to the Divine Solstice being seated with you and when you’re ready, open you’re eyes and feel how you still feel the gift of Beingness.

Aho! And so it is.

Happy Solstice Friends 🙂

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A Powerful Full Moon Healing Ritual for the end of the Decade.

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Happy last Full Moon of the decade!  It really feels like the last full moon of the decade, doesn’t it?!  Like a real completion, ending and new beginning, a new era is about to emerge.

This full moon feels like a wrap up of the last ten years.  It’s time to dot the “I’s” and cross the “T’s”.  If you were like me you may have felt the urge to clean, cleanse and organize.

In a couple weeks, my oldest son will be turning 10.  And it has me reflecting a lot on my life ten years ago.  At the very beginning of this decade, I was 9 months pregnant and found out my husband (at the time) was cheating.  My life literally fell to pieces as I birthed my son into the world.  I remember going to a tarot card reader who pulled the Tower Card for me.  The card showed a burning and collapsing tower with giant piles of ruble and people jumping out of the tower.  It couldn’t have summed up my life better at the time.  All that I had built was being destroyed.  Little did I know that it would be the best thing that ever happened.

This last week in particular I have been struggling a lot with my health.  My neck becomes suddenly immobile and swollen.  So I listened to my body and just moved my awareness into the areas of pain…between my shoulder blades and neck.  As my mind went to this spot, an image of knife popped into my head.  I had been stabbed in the back.  My husband’s affairs felt like being stabbed in the back, the ultimate betrayal.

As I spoke with my neck and asked what it needed, I heard her whisper…”to take the knife out.”  I have been living with the knife still in my back, or at least the memory of its pain.  I started this decade with heartache and loss and I’ve carried that in my back til this moment.  I’m done waiting for a magical apology, or an owning of a horrific action.  I’m freeing myself from the last energetic chord to my ex.  As I imagined pulling the knife out, I seen myself walking to his house, ringing the doorbell and handing him the blood stained knife.  I turned my back and walked away.  It’s his to hold, not mine.  What he does with it is his choice.   I’m done living with the memory of that pain.  I don’t need to anymore, I’ve done the healing.

I’m entering this new decade in triumph, on a chariot of courage, determination and clarity.  Ten years after this treacherous time in my life, I’m remarried and have two more sons, a new home, a new job, essentially a whole new life.  I have rebuilt a stronger tower, on a much sturdier foundation.  I’v built a life that is actually suited to me.

The next ten years of my life will have nothing to do with that knife.  It will be about my life that I created and all the new stuff emerging, manifesting and singing my name.  To close my journey inward, I felt the need to heal the open wound in my skin left by the knife.  I imagined my guides coming and doing some energy healing and sowing me up with golden and sacred wire.  I imagined too putting my own hands on the wound and filling myself up with self-love and self-honour.  This is what I really want to focus on in the next ten years of my journey.  And so it is!

A FULL MOON SOUL JOURNEY FOR COMPLETION.

On this full moon I invite you to summon what is left of your learning in these last ten years.   Light some candles, burn some sage or innocence or infuse some oils and take some deep friggen’ breaths.  Really inhale.   Really exhale.  Move into that part of your body where the stuck energy and patterns of the last ten years are held.  Where is it?  What are the sensations that you notice?  Describe them.  Just move your mind there.   If you were to imagine an image that best represents the old wound or stuck pattern, what image emerges?  Or words, or shapes or colours?  Use your imagination.

What do you imagine this imagine represents?

What does your soul need regarding this energy in you?

What would the image/object say to you?

What do you need?

Are you ready to release it?

Ask your wise body how she would like you to release this old patterned energy?  Feel free to call in the elements of wind, water, fire or earth to help you.  Maybe a loved one, an Angel, a guide or power animal will be your helper.  Or maybe like me, you will just imagine pulling it out yourself.  There is no right or wrong, just what is.

What energy are you needing to fill yourself with, having removed this old energy and

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pattern?

Are there helpers, guides, stars, Grandmother moon…the water…anything that can help you heal the spot of the old.

Fill yourself with golden, radiant light and feel how lightened you are from freeing yourself from this pattern you’ve carried for the last ten years.

You are amazing!

And so it is!

Happy Full Healing Moon.

Much love

Crystal

xo

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