The Blog- Rituals and Sacred Feminine Teachings

Uncategorized

A Delightful and Simple April New Moon Ritual.

The new moon has arrived after a tumultuous month of retrogrades and chaos and unearthing of what was/is unhealed within us.  

As I sit with the energy of this moon I keep hearing the word JOY.  Joy, joy, joy.  It’s funny cause one of my good pals and I were discussing how to create more joy in the busyness of raising kids, cooking dinners, soccer, homework etc.  Sometimes the responsibilities of life mutes the colours of joy as we get caught in the web of routine.

I was brought back to the simple question of… “what makes me joyful.” And this is something I really need to discover cause to be honest I don’t quite know.  I know what used to but life has changed and it’s something I need to explore again.

A Delightful New Moon Ritual

So on this new moon I invite you to join me in taking some quiet and sacred space, light a candle, have a cup of tea and put the word JOY at the centre of your page.  Take a few centering breaths and just free flow with what makes you joyful… no thinking just pen flowing and see what comes.

Make a commitment to create pockets of joy in your life.  Maybe throughout the day you take ten minute increments in doing something that ignites your joy or makes you laugh or settles and soothes your soul.

And so it is my friends

Xo

Crystal 

Uncategorized

A Healing Ritual For the April Full Moon

moon lodgeHappy Full Moon Women’s Tribe 🙂  Here we are all the full moon and in the bingo bango bongo of four retrograde planets!  Eekers. It is a time evaluation, of reflection, of looking back at what needs to be healed in the past so we can carry forward with more ease and gentleness in the now and in our futures.  That is the gift of retrogrades.   It’s not always easy as our old stuff emerges and comes to the for front but heck, let’s let it.  Allow it.  Make room for it at the kitchen table as though it were your long lost aunt.  We must honor its’ existence and take a look.  Feel it.  Set it on its’ way…out of body, out of our bones, released from our tissue.

For me, I’ve been lingering in trauma memories.  I thought I had done my healing around this but life and emotional breakdowns, says the healing is not done.When I had my first baby my first husband just didn’t deal with the transition into fatherhood well and basically bailed.  He did it in a manner that was hurtful, in a way he knew best…to cheat and chose another woman.  My highest conscious Self knows that he wasn’t conscious or aware enough to talk and tell me that he was struggling or lost or unsure if he could handle being both a husband and father simultaneously.  And so he left and chose her.  He didn’t know how to say that he could not be who I needed or was asking of him so he acted it out to express it to me.  I get that on a soul level, but it was still emotionally and mentally devastating and one of the most painful experiences of my life.  (As well as the best thing that could have happened in the long run).  I associate having a baby with pain and struggle and loss.

I ended up on my own with baby, in a new apartment (he got the house), lost my job (found another), he got our dogs as he was in the house and me in an apartment.  And there I was in the threshold of new motherhood trying to keep my head above water, wondering if I could support myself and baby, manage motherhood and a full-time job, etc..etc..  It was devastating, so much change all at one time.  It was shocking actually.  I felt really abandoned and alone.  Navigating custody battles when you were wronged and nobody gave a poop was crazy making.  I struggled most with the fact that I could not be with my baby all the time cause of the choice he made, I had to lose time with my son.  I had to share custody.  There was little to no consequence for him or his actions…he got to keep the house (he did have to buy me out), he had his regular job, and he got what he wanted…to be a part-time dad all by betraying our vows, lying, and being with another woman.  I on the other hand got my world shattered and was continually told in court that I had to keep the emotional stuff separate from the custody, like I was not supposed to have feelings for what I went through.   I was treated like the problem, not him.  CRAZY. MAKING!

Anywho…years have passed.  I’m happily remarried with a new baby who’s almost 9months old.  Well my husband has been working out of town for the last few months and I have been on my own with the kids for weeks at a time.  It has totally triggered all those memories.  The emotions, the forgotten dark times, the memories I blocked out…all coming back with a vengeance….to the point I cry and cry and cry.  I’ve done trauma therapy, emotional release work, journalling, creative expression, you name it…I’ve released so much and yet the memories of being on my own with a baby linger in my gut, in my blood, in my immune system.  There is more to be released.

This full moon is asking us to revisit past sore spots and evaluate how they impact the now.  What’s been coming up?  An old relationship?  An old patter of self-sabotage or job loss or endings, break-ups, loss in general?  Allow it my friends. Pull out the chair and have it sit down with you.

FULL MOON HEALING RITUALsacred body 2

Find a cozy space, light a candle and some incents.  Have a cup of tea or a glass of wine and grab and pen and paper.  We are going to write a letter to ourselves in the past that was struggling (And still has some to release).  We are going to offer this part of ourselves what she needs.

Allow what comes…..but here’s some points to remember to include.

-Honor and recognized and validate your younger self’s feelings and experiences.

-Ask that part of you what she needs.

-Allow her to answer.

-Imagine bringing this part of you to a time in your past where you experienced and received what she is needing.  So if you are needing to feel love or trust, remember a time when you did.  Who’s with you.  What are you doing?  What season is it?   What time of day?  What are you doing together?  What are the smells in the air.  What colors and temperature is it?  Breathe in the sensation of experiencing what she/you needs.  Where do you feel it?  See it as a ball of energy and let it spread throughout your body, allow the feeling to expand and really experience it sensationally for a few minutes.

Write about it…and bring her back now with the memories.

 

Here’s mine.

To my 28 year old self,

First off, I see you. I hear you. I honor you.  I know how much pain you endured and you still carry.  I see it, I feel it, I honor that it’s there.  I think you are so strong for making it, for carrying on, for doing what you need to do to survive and care for your son.  I’m so proud of you.

I know you are struggling, I see you, I feel you, I hear you with all the emotions that you are arising within me….what do you need my love?

I need to feel not so alone…not so abandonned, not so isolated like I have to everything myself.  I feel trapped and caged and scared.  It’s so heavy and painful to carry it all myself.  I can’t believe I have to do this myself.

As I reflect on when I have felt the most supported and loved and held is when I was in Lynn Andrews School.  My classmates were my sisterhood.  And so I bring her to one of our circles and fires where they all gave me healing and love.   They drummed and rattled and held me in loving energy like I never felt before.  I was one of them, and they were part of me.  They held me, they supported me, they were always there for me, even though we lived all over the world.  I let them offer to her what they offered me then.  I imagine her feeling the drum beat and the sound of the rattles….we are in a dark space with candles and fairy lights and the smell of sage burning lingers in the air.  I tell her to let the drum fill her body up with strength and support and to feel the love.  I tell her to look into the fire and hear it crackle and to see how a web of women in the spirit world also connected to her and holding her, the Sisterhood of the Shields, the Grandmothers, her guides, her power animals, her ancestors, the fairies…they are all surrounding her and with her at all times giving her strength and power.   They all have a hand on her shoulder, she is the farthest thing from alone. I ask her to imagine that strength and love and power is like gold dust being sent from everyone in the room and in the energy world to her.  I ask her to imagine it going in her and with each inhale in her body and with each second that passes she is being beamed with the light of strength and sisterhood.

I close my eyes and feel the sensations with her.  I feel the web of women weaving love around me and her supporting us and holding us.    Each drum beat strengthens us with inner power and confidence.   I tell her to see it filling her body, to feel the confidence and love and support.  She does and so do I.  I can see she feels stronger and supported…a shift has happened I feel it in my heart chakra.  I thank everyone at the circle with us for such a powerful experience and I grab her hand and go through a door that lingers in a giant boulder into the now… bringing with us the felt experience and gifts of support and love and strength into the now.  I imagine putting a shawl on her to remind her of the hands that hugged her and literally have and touched her back offering their support.  I allow that image of her feeling stronger with her shawl in my heart to expand and fill my body.

And so it is….

 

Happy FULL HEALING MOON.

xo Crystal

If you feel called, I’d be so honored if you followed the BLOG or the Women’s Tribe Facebook Page.

Uncategorized

Aries New Moon Ritual

Happy New Moon and the beginning of the New Astrological Year in Aries.  Woot woot.  The first New Moon in Aries starts another cycle around the zodiac and I always look forward to this moon.  It feels like another New Year feeling, a fresh beginning, a new clean slate.  Spring has begun to wake up and the ice in the river is cracking and the water is slowly starting to flow again.  We are waking up from hibernation and frozen-ness (I know not a word lol).  Life is beginning Her new cycle from death to birth once again.

This winter has been tough on me.  My family has been hit with a ton of sickness.  I sit here writing this with a current bout of pneumonia.  I have lost my sense of power this winter and it has showed up in my lungs, it has come as grief…as I can’t catch my breath remembering.

A circumstance of change threw me into a situation that I hate.  It brought me to my knees and back into painful trauma memories.  I felt like I was barely surviving only treading water and minimally keeping a float for months.  I have waited for the circumstance to change so I can get my power back, my well-being, and my sense of stability.  But the reality it is not changing for awhile.  So I must find my power again on my own.  I feel like I must rummage through a dark field and look for large gems that fell out of my soul, pick them up, put them in my basket and bring them back home.

So here’s the deal, this is a time of transformation and change and turning of the wheel and season.  Life is literally going to re-emerge in front of our eyes.

So plan 1…radical self-care.  I must strengthen my physical body.  I have 10 weeks left in this change of life and I am making weekly self-care goals and plans.  I’m arranging baby-sitters and potential outing/gathering opportunities.  This is part of gathering my soul marbles and gems back into my heart and body.

Plan 2…I have two goals that I want to complete and finish this season.  I will plan goals for this as well…one of them to start is to get ink for my printer as step one!  Its creating space and time and for the next ten weeks I feel called to focus.  Plan.  Start. Do.

What are your plans?

ARIES NEW MOON RITUAL:fortune teller

Light those candles, ignite your incense, invite over a friend or two and get out your paper and pens.  It’s time to dream, to go to the depths and beyond, the other worlds and invoke our lives with NEW LIFE.  So here we go…

Imagine that you are sitting across from A Wise and Loving Guide, a fabulous Intuitive/Seer and she pulls out a tarot deck.  She asks you flip as many cards as you feel you need.  What cards do you flip?  This is a unique deck, perhaps a never before seen deck and it has an image or word meant specifically to you.  There is no right or wrong, just what is.   Flip a card and ask the Wise and Loving Guide to give you a message with each one.  Just let what come, come and see what is there.  What messages do the cards have for you?

Ready, set go…write it out just float to the clouds with your pen.

At the end of your reading with this Wise, Intuitive, Loving Guide gives you a rock with a symbol on it.  What is the symbol?  What does it mean for you?  Grab it and pull it inward into your heart.  Soak in the blessing.

Grab a marker and a rock and make it come alive!!!

When you are done, imagine returning to your own body.  Grab a stone or rub your feet on the ground.

Happy Astrological New Year, and a year FULL OF LIFE and JOY!! And so it is.

xo

Crystal  .  As always I’d feel so honored and blessed if you FOLLOWED MY BLOG and Liked the Women’s Tribe Facebook Page.  🙂

Uncategorized

Friction & The March Full Moon.

The energy of this full moon feels a bit intense, wouldn’t you say? I feel restless, annoyed, frustrated, then ok and then frustrated or stuck again and back to ok.  Exhausting !

I pulled a card for this full moon from the Psychic Tarot deck and got a card I’ve never had before.  Kinda fitting.  

The card is called accelerated motion.  It feels like we are being propelled or pulled into the new even though we are in the midst of struggle or change.

It’s easy to resist change it’s uncomfortable and often we must walk through doors or circumstances that we don’t enjoy to get to where we want to go.  These transition spots are tough but crucial in the change process… if not pivotal and instrumental in the transformational success or not.  So breathe through them… scream through them, cry and let out the pain of the transitions.  Celebrate the good moments …enjoy the sun, sip your luscious coffee intentionally, love your babies or puppies, breathe in the fresh crisp air.  Suckle in the good when it’s there… even just for moments. Put on your bright lipstick and stick this out !

For me…my family has experienced a change where my husband is away working for ten days at a time .  I’m struggling to accept this.  I hate it and can’t quite move into just accepting it .  So today amidst my struggling resistance I sat myself down and asked spirit… “What is the gift of this six month change? ”

I heard… “we’ve created room for you to focus on you and your writing, to finish what you’ve been waiting to finish for years (my holistic recovery program that’s in the final stages).  This is the gift of this struggle … so own it and do it!  The time is now .”

 It’s busy with taking care of my kids but the gift of being busy is that my time is very intentional and scheduled. I’ve had to get my butt organized and focused  – two things I tend to struggle with when I have lots of time on my hands.

So even though circumstances aren’t perfect or even shittay’ …these challenging times create friction. Friction creates heat that can turn into fire and transform things in an instant.   That’s when we change… when we are so uncomfortable we want to!  We do what it takes to get out of the doorway of hell. 

If this moon could speak she’d say that she’s summoning up some friction to get things moving… like really moving .  She’s lighting a fire under our resistant butts to get going on the new path.  We are being called forward like never before…we must arise now!  The Sacred Feminine is howling to me so strongly that when I sit and write with Her, tears fall down my cheeks because my heart feels so full in Her presence .  

So embrace the struggle, the uncomfortable feelings, the frustration, the anger, even the sadness and let it propel you into forward motion .  Get intentional! Get clear.  Get organized.  Get doing and going.

Grandmother moon bows and winks at you even during your struggle and friction.  You are not alone, not even close, you are simply being called forward!

And so it is 🙂

Crystal xo

If yiu feel called, I’d love it you Followed The Blog or The Womes Tribe Facebook page @thewomenstribe .

Uncategorized

Some Sacred Feminine 101 for International Women’s Day.

goddess4In honor of International Women’s Day I feel called to share with you some basic teachings of the Sacred Feminine…a general flavoring of what it is…what it feels like.  And so it is 🙂

Back in my early twenties, I hadn’t heard of the Sacred Feminine, I had no idea what it was or what it meant.  But the words Sacred and Feminine lingered in my aura like a puff of smoke I really wanted to inhale.  My soul recognized them even though my mind did not.

I learned about Feminism and studied feminist approaches to counselling but Sacred Feminine was new territory.  It started with a book I read by Lynn Andrews called The Tree of Dreams.  Lynn Andrews is shamaness and teacher (Writer of Medicine Woman and many other books) her words, her stories spoke to me in a way that I was unveiling and discovering myself.  I couldn’t wait to get home from work and pick up her words and suck them into my body and soul.  They evoked a remembering in me, a filling of a deep hole that longed to be filled.  The wild call from my soul that had been attempting to dial me up my entire life finally found its’ way to my ears and I had no choice but to hear it.  She lead me to the trail.  I eventually apprenticed under Lynn Andrews for four years and became Earth Steward, Minister and Healer under her Sacred Feminine teachings from the Sisterhood of the Shields.  (This is a whole other post lol)

So for those of you new to the concept of the Sacred Feminine or those of you dipping your toes into the beautiful realm, or those of you swimming in the pool of the Feminine, I honor you all for expanding and remembering a consciousness the world so desperately needs at this moment in time.

For me….I grew up in a religion that had masculine/patriarchal roots that told me that my body was the place of sin and weakness and that body and flesh should not be trusted as it was prone to over indulgence and wild longings that could take over my character, morals and life.  As a sensitive, intuitive, strongly emotional young girl I didn’t know how to carry this teaching and exist with it in my life.  I interpreted it to mean all my emotions, my desires, my sensuality, my sexuality, and urges were sinful, wrong, all the fundamental, primal elements of myself were shameful and could not be trusted.  I was taught as most of us are in our current world, not to trust my body.  I became disembodied…disconnected from the most fundamental, natural, primal elements and internal guidance within me.  I wasn’t supposed to listen to myself, I was supposed to follow the pre-determined rules and keep quiet.

These teachings put me up against my own self and body, and for me filled me with the idea that I am not enough, I’m flawed, I’m unloveable, I’m wrong, I’m damaged and I’m weak simply for having a body. So I shut down, I controlled, I obsessed, I calorie counted and eating disordered my way into an unconscious expression of the battle between my mind and soul.  I caged my wild, feminine roots and essence away for I thought she could not be trusted,  I thought she was wrong for existing, I thought she was not welcome simply by the fact she was not acknowledged or celebrated or encouraged to develop and grow. I did not consciously know that this was occurring  nor that I even had a wild, feminine soul deep within me, I simply had a deep feeling of emptiness, a craving for something I could not put my finger on or fill.  I knew without knowing that I was missing something, I just did not know what.  I had a deep, dark hole and an ache in my gut.  I thought it was a character flaw and a weakness that I could not just follow the rules and do life and be okay.  I just wanted to be normal but knew I wasn’t, something was different in me…in my DNA, in my structure. At the time I thought it was a bad thing, a lacking…I see now it was a knowing I had not yet discovered.

As I a look back I see now it was my feminine soul, my wise, emotional, intuitive body loudly and boldly expressing that I lost contact to my feminine essence.  And in doing so I lost connection to my body, my emotions, my intuition, my creativity, my ability to be….  me.  I acted out this loss of body/soul connection as an eating disorder and it also carried with it anxiety and depression….all natural feelings from losing yourself I’d say…yes?!

When you least expect it, or barely notice, the Sacred Feminine howls to you and  begins to call you home.  Synchronicity occurs and She finds her way to you subtly….first through restless, anxious energy calling you inward, or perhaps even depression.  Or a struggle with eating disorders or weight obsession or too much boozin, trying to make you look at why you’ve been acting out your pain.  She continues to howl for you and sooner or later a book comes your way or a dream evokes a remembering or a class you take leads you to Her trail or you meet a gal who digs the Divine Feminine 😉 and boom the lightning strikes and you remember!  Your heart cracks open with ancient, soul remembering that has been around for thousands of years.

And in Her essence (The Sacred Feminine Energies) there’s so much to learn, so much uncloaking, and shedding and releasing what never quite fit you in the first place.  There’s a lot of removal of the masks and shirts and fancy jackets we put on in the world and a diving deep into our naked, raw bodies instead.  The shedding can be painful but its’ also sparked with so much inner excitement and inner knowing of something much deeper, much more primal and inwardly wild.  It’s felt by feeling full for the first time ever, like a tasting of what peace feels like in a cup.  It’s a feeling being connected and lit up like the brightest firework you every did see and knowing you found your path home.

Spirit comes through your body, your body is Spirit in form…your intuition, your emotions, your body sensations are messengers from you’re own highest Self and the Divine and you learn that you never meant to abandon the very body Creation gave you to discover, feel and sensually inhale all the luscious, vibration, sensation evoking feelings that every dam thing all around you could offer.  You were meant to learn how to follow your body’s lead as Sacred Messenger, not sinner, not weakness but Divine Guider/Goddess of your soul’s desires, your soul’s path, your soul’s must do in this lifetime.

Your body is like your soul’s compass on the path to soul completion and gift sharing in this world.  She will signal to you when it feels oohhhhh so good and when it feels oh so wrong.  That gut instinct that says no or something doesn’t feel right and when things just flow in the most auspicious ways.   Spirit is felt inside, in stillness, in the body, in excitement, in peace, in anger, in fear, it uncertainty….Spirit is everywhere, especially in your body.

So on this International Women’s Day I honor ALL women and the SACRED FEMININE in all of us (both men and women).  I honor your sacred body as a place to start the remembering. I honor all of us women for all the feminine qualities we carry and move in to the world….the creativity, the nurturing, the loving, the connecting, the igniting of magic and joy we do.

And so it is sisters 🙂

I you feel called and you’d like to learn more about the Sacred Feminine or Holistic Recovery Coaching I’d be tinkled pink if you FOLLOWED THE BLOG or emailed me.  Blessings dear friends.

Uncategorized

It’s an Emotional Time – Write it Out :)

Lately, things have been tough on my end.  It’s been an intense New Year, filled with challenges, exhaustion and illness.  My son had pneumonia, my husband has been out of town working and I’ve been left to deal with the pockets of old trauma that keeps bubbling up from my past.

I have slept very little for the last six weeks due to my son’s (six months old) pneumonia.  I’ve had to “sleep” (I use this term loosely) sitting up with him laying on my chest, so he can breathe more easily.  His bouts of horrible coughing would occur anywhere between every half our to every two hours.  He is finally clearing it out.

I got pushed way past my physical, emotional, spiritual and mental limits and I did what I always do…  I did it anyways, I struggled, I didn’t ask for help when I should have and I landed in a hole of despair.  I’ve been addicted to struggle and pain a lot in my life, like it’s my norm.  Somehow it seems in my crooked thinking that it is noble, strong, and more badge worthy to struggle….badge worthy?!  What badges you ask….hell if I know ! LOL 🙂

Many of us are moving through some emotional intensity and struggle right now.  And what I’ve learned from my own is that we are being asked to do it differently, to heal in its grip, to let go…to lighten and free ourselves of the old stuck ways.

I put on what I think is my superhero cape and try and accomplish the impossible on my own…only to usually fall into an extreme exhaustion and despair and then resentment and a full blown pity party for not having help.  It’s my own fault, I don’t ask for it…I really struggle with this and I take the long, hard road that fills me with the most thorns.  Enduring pain became like a misguided map of strength for me.  It feeds into this wounded belief that I’m all alone, I only have myself to survive.  I’ve depended on it my whole life and yes at times it has helped but now it hinders my life.  It cracks open these awful, painful memories and emotions of abandonment and struggle from my past and I get frozen in the doom.  I leak tears and tears for days until I somehow snap out of it.  It’s time…I’m changing that old story!  I am not alone, I can count on people, I do have love and support from others.

To get out of this despair and exhaustion that leaves me weak at me knees, I’ve had to ask for help. I’ve had to pad my life up with support…getting a cleaner, exploring a mother’s helper or part-time nanny, getting babysitters, and that alone dries up the pools of doom.  I don’t feel so alone with support nets around me.

So let’s take a little emotional road on the page…yes?

 

EMOTIONAL PURGE ON THE PAGEwriting

-So what old belief systems are your emotions cracking open?  What is your current struggle?  What emotions are surfacing…why and when?

-What old archetypes/masks/personas have you used to survive that no longer serve a great purpose?  What patterns of thinking and behaving come from these personas?  What emotions are they masking?  For me it was superwoman/perfectionist and victim…they mask my fear for vulnerability….of needing help….like it will somehow make me unlovable and alone.  It comes from my past marriage when I was in a post-partum depression and I was ultimately abandoned and betrayed in my most vulnerable state.  The emotions of that time linger in my body…the devastation…the grief….they have been summoned out right now.  And it’s ok…it’s intense but it’s ok.  I am loved now…I am with a good man.  I am struggling yes but he holds and supports me in that.

Where, how, and when can you access love and support?

Are there images that give you hope and strength…as well as a sense of love and support?  See them…imagine them and send them into your body.  Feel them circulating in your body and feel all the strength, love , support and hope fill your cells and ignite and release the joy already inside of you.  

For me I see sunshine and rainbows, a tribe of women around me, ceremonial fires and circles….igniting alive what all fell asleep or burned out within me.  My heart expands, settles and softens in the presence and felt sense of these images.

 

And so it is friends 🙂

xo

Crystal

AS ALWAYS, IF YOU FEEL CALLED I WOULD BE SO HONORED IF YOU FOLLOWED MY BLOG 🙂

 

Uncategorized

First New Moon of the Year Ritual.

This is the first New Moon of the year.  Can I get a woot woot?  This month has felt tough.  We january-moonhave been clearing the emotional and psychic debris of 2016.  For me this has even manifested in my whole family being sick…pneumonia, bronchitis, a chronic cough.  I have had little to no sleep in weeks and it is tough.  I have been brought to tears a few times only to inhale in the moment for what it is…a moment and keep going step by step, hour by hour.  It’s raw and  vulnerable and it has shredded me of anything else but what is at the moment.  Haven’t we all felt this in some way or another.  The fear, the shock, the changes that are occurring, we feel powerless at times.  But take some breaths and move inward towards your power.  See, summon and call forward what is stirring to come out. There is so much to be hopeful for, so much healing is happening.

This New Moon feels like a New Beginning in the year 2017 (Also Chinese New Year).  This is a number one year in numerology, new cycles, new beginnings… a change in a new direction, a first step into something new.  This is a time of hope, a time of belief that the impossible can indeed be possible.  That change can happen, that even though we are moving through tough changes, great healing is occurring and more strength, more voicing, more power and belief in ourselves is building.  It is building like a great tidal wave ready to shift the tides of the planet.  Women and men are awakening like never before, we are being called to get louder and stronger at quicker rates.

This New Moon is calling us inward, to soak up our vision of the new we want in the world.  Many are being called into change…a change of career, a change or relationship, a change in what we tolerate and don’t tolerate, a change of our habit of being silent in to using our voice.  I even had a wild thought about what working in the political world might be like, knowing that we need more women in this arena.  This may not be my path, or it may who knows, but many women are being called towards such and this is wonderful news for all of us!!!

New Moon Ritual:

As always set the mood…candles..tea…wine…incense…music…quiet…whatever floats your boat.     Take some deep breaths and close your eyes.  Go to an inner place of power, a place where you feel strong and confident and hold yourself up high.  Breathe it in…what do you see?  Where are you?  What colors are there?  What’s the climate?  What’s the feel?  For me it’s a sacred fire at Ghost Ranch, it’s pitch black out except the bright orange and yellow flames of the fire.  Allow your loving and kind guide to come and give you picture or words or symbols that represent the vision of the life you want.  See it, inhale it, feel yourself being it.

Create a collage or just free flow words for two minutes and see what shoots out on the paper from heart to hand.  We are all part of this eclectic puzzle changing, inspiring and moving change forward so honor your soul’s call.  Now is the time.  Abundance and prosperity are around the corner.

Happy New Moon and Chinese New Year…it is the year of the Rooster 🙂

 

Blessings and love friends.

As always, if you feel called I’d be so delighted if you FOLLOWED MY BLOG or The Women’s Tribe Facebook Page.

Photo by quotestack.com

 

Uncategorized

7 Ways to Harness the New Moon & End of the Year Energy.

magic dustIt’s the new moon and the end of the year.   This moon feels like a good one to get organized, ready and focused for the New Year.  Each New Year feels like an energetic fresh and slate and this New Moon is helping us prep for this.  In preparation of the fresh energy ahead, I usually cleanse out the energy of my home and release the energy of the past year.  I let go of things I no longer need, have out grown and make space for new life and new energy to enter because my friends there will be new things coming, change of some sort and we must create space for that.  I know change can be tough but it’s tougher if we fight what is because usually the energy forces its way into our lives drastically if we don’t allow it naturally to unfold, gently and lovingly.  There is a Divine Plan…trust that and the universe, She always has your back 🙂

Here are some ways to prepare the energy in your home and close the energy of this year and celebrate the New Moon as we are in the Capricorn energy.  Let’s get organized…organized…dah… dah… dah… dah…organized…organized…(just what Capricorns love)

  • Clean out your closets.  Go through your clothes and remove all the ones you don’t wear.  Donate what you no longer need.  This goes for your pantry and linen closets as well.  Get rid of old food or spices you no longer use.

 

 

  • Go through your email and clean it up. Delete, delete, delete… what you no longer need!  I recently did this and unsubscribed to a truck load of sites as it was simply clogging up my email accounts.  It was so freeing.  I had 3000 emails, now I have fewer than 50.  I also created folders and categorized and filed emails that I need to hang on to.

 

  • I know, I know it’s kind of the last thing you want to do but cleanse out the old dirt of the year.  Vacuum, wash the floors and if you can allow a fresh breeze of air to flow through your home.  It’s winter here, snow, ice, freezing, but I still open the windows to allow the winter breeze to fly through and cleanse out what is there, even for a few brief moments.

 

  • Clean your entrance and doorway. Wipe the door, wash the floor, re-arrange furniture, put away the pile that gets stored at the entrance.   Sweep out the floor and old energy and allow new energy and prosperity to enter.  You’ll feel the effects instantly!!

 

  • Go through paper work that needs to be filed or thrown out. Get organized. Burn what you no longer need and feel the old releasing in the flames.

 

  • Clean out your purse and wallet. Make sure receipts are not filed in the place you store your money.  That is a no-no.  Do not place bills where money is suppose to flow.

 

  • Remove all your garbage and recycling from your home.  If you’re like us and live in the sticks make a trip to the dump and recycling depot.  If you live in town or city just try and place it outside or garage until it can be picked up but before the New Year.  I even dropped off an old and broken printer at an e- recycling station.  I’ve been meaning to do this for a year!

 

Clearing out the old is so refreshing may you enjoy the new space and energy that comes with releasing and cleansing out the old.  🙂

  • As an additional note, I feel inspired to make a collage of what I want to invite and fell and experience in my life in 2017.  Use some of the holiday cards, words, poems, images, that speak to you and tap into your creativity and allow it to fill you up as we end the energy of the year and start the New Moon cycle.

Now, we are ready to welcome in the energy of 2017.

If you feel called, do feel free to Follow the Blog.  I’d be so honored🙂  and Follow The Women’s Tribe Facebook Page.   Also I’d love it if you shared the post…they say sharing is caring hehehe.

Blessings,  joy and clear energy friends🙂

Crystal

Uncategorized

A Healing December Full Moon Ritual

The last full moon of the year, and a supermoon ta boot!  Yup the moon is closest to the earth, intensifying it’s effects on our emotional bodies.  …yeehaw and oh boy! I don’t know about you but I have been may moon2spewing emotion out of nowhere…tears fall out suddenly and surprisingly as a pour a cup of tea or as I drive down the snowy road, they just abruptly float down my cheeks.  I feel raw and vulnerable, stripped down to my bones.  The Universe at large is asking us to surrender our defenses, no more fearful living and just to trust at the door of lingering change ahead.  I don’t know what is around the road but there’s something and all we can do is walk the path of the unknown one step, or pearl strand at a time until we can see it and know what it is.

This is a big moon…a real big cleansing, a pull from the moon for you to release all the armor that blocks you from receiving love and abundance. All the fear padding you wear will be played with, toyed with, shaken loose for you to look.  And you feel naked, raw, emotional, and down right scared.  I feel a duty to tell you that you must feel what is there if you’d like it to transform.  Just sit with it in the moment it arises and see it through, so you can release it.  This is no easy feat, we are usually used to squirming our way out the emotions or distract ourselves into numbness.

FULL MOON RITUAL:

Now is time to allow what the moon is calling out of us to emote and simply see it through.  Do so on this Full Moon…emote with me, with the Sacred Feminine and Grandmother Moon and feel the divinity and healing in this sacred act.  What are you afraid of? What is coming up?  Are you angry? Annoyed? Sad? Why? Write it out…literally list it all on a page.  I’m mad at….I’m annoyed that…I’m scared of….

Get that stuff out and have a pity party on the page.  Allow yourself to open to what is there so you can release it.  Release it by burning it.  How can you let go and surrender into love and what is?  Now list the the qualities you need at this time…and imagine those qualities as symbols.  Go on…stretch your imagination and just allow what comes.  For me I need trust and faith and I when I think or an image or symbol that represents that I imagine Grandmother Moon beaming her loving hands down to my heart and inserting crystals all over my body.  They radiate peace and trust, they make me feel secure and calm.  I breathe in the feeling of that feeling and keep imaging the crystal powers spreading throughout my entire being.  Imagine your symbols entering your body and spreading out so that all the cells of you can feel what its’ like to have what you need to carry onward down the road of life.

All the old wounds have been summoned, even when you thought you have worked it out, the last seeping fluid of it floating around in your body will be called out so you can start 2017 a new, cleared, focused…ready for what lies ahead.  And here’s the kicker, it still isn’t clear what is around the bend of 2017.  It is new, it is different, it is a change but we still can’t put our finger on what the heck that is how it will translate for us in our lives.

For me I just found out my husband will be working out of town for chunks at a time starting in January and oh boy has this stirred up some deep emotion in me.  When I had my first baby, my first husband bailed and I was left to my defenses and a baby.  I lost everything, the house, the dogs, my job, my peace, my security, my trust in others.  I fought and fought and I survived. I survived by padding up, by not needing anybody, living totally on my own, independent, and stopped reaching for help…I stopped trusting in people for fear of getting hurt.  I didn’t lean on anybody but myself, that felt safest.  I closed my heart.

Seven years later (and my second baby with my amazing new husband), I’ve opened my heart again.  I can trust again because of the good man in my life, who is consistent, who shows up, who honors his word time and time again.  I have felt safe and secure enough over and over to allow myself to be more dependent on him…or at least more interdependent.  I still struggle to ask for help but I’m getting there and I express my needs more (sometimes lol) rather than struggle along “independently” doing everything myself.  And now he’s leaving (but he’s not, he’s just going on periodic work trips) but my body is registering his leaving as abandonment.  My fear has skyrocketed out of my bones and the memories of being a single mom, alone, nobody to depend on, nobody to protect me, a loss of safety and security are erupting out of my cellular memory.  Maybe I haven’t fully processed it all (even though a few years of counselling you think I would) but there’s a pocket I missed or didn’t find until now…or maybe, just maybe I’m going at the unknown heart not padded and full of feeling.

My mind is swirling with anxious, fearful worries…”What if I find myself in that position again, what if life falls apart again?  What if life throws a giant curve ball and I’m left to my own devices again…now with two kids?  What if I die, what if he dies…blah blah blah.”  My head spins in irrational fears and my blood pumps what feels like firecrackers throughout my anxious body.

The truth is I need my husband and I’ve never let myself trust to this capacity before.  I’ve never let my shield down this much because I’ve never experienced this kind of love and trust.  And sometimes I don’t know what to do with that, I don’t know how to live with that vulnerability.  The slightest risk to my well-being or security and I immediately want to put the armor back on and back way up from the closeness I feel for this wonderful man.  I get terrorized, aka – traumatized by the memories and emotions from the most painful period of my life and I want to only count on myself.  That means I shrivel up and retreat…sawing off my connections.  Not good, not good.

This is what this moon is pulling from our veins,this yuck, this old painful icky goo…  But we must feel the shit, the pus, the bruises, the memories of the sharp cuts and let it seep out, so we can go in the New Year with love, with trust.

decembermoonWe are being called into our vulnerability on this last Full Moon of 2016 because it has been one heck of a ride of healing this year so why not end it with a full moon bang! 😉

Here are some beautiful words that found their way to me that really rang the bell of my soul for this full moon. (From writer Beth Berry). I invite you sit with your vulnerability and see what happens.  What does it feel when you welcome it’s presence?  What would it feel like to allow it to embodies within you?

“I now see that by holding so tightly to a more masculine understanding of strength, I was actually repressing and resisting a new strength trying to be born in me: the more feminine strength of vulnerability.

It is vulnerable to ask for help. It is vulnerable to admit that you don’t know what to do. It is vulnerable to depend on others physically, financially, and emotionally. It is vulnerable to gaze into the eyes of your newborn baby and realize that she is completely dependent on you for her wellbeing. It is vulnerable to imagine evolving into something unknown (and culturally dishonored). It is vulnerable to lose yourself to love. It is vulnerable to trust your instincts. It is vulnerable to claim strength and beauty in ways that aren’t culturally condoned.”  (source:  http://revolutionfromhome.com/2016/08/we-arent-meant-to-bounce-back-after-babies/)

Vulnerability is the opposite of what we learned.  Vulnerability is a brand new bathing suit that requires giant pools of trust and love and faith…like bad-ass faith— in the Divine, and in the good and heart of another.  For me putting my heart on the chopping block again, risking it…and trusting that I will be loved, that men don’t leave or choose themselves over their families all the time.  It’s trusting in a foundation of connection that has never been experienced before and believing that the wires of union as so intertwined you are safe.  Vulnerability is like putting on an ugly sweater but knowing only certain few can see it’s beauty and wearing anyway because that’s how you are choosing to role…heart open, ready to be present and feeling, and trusting and risking in the face of uncertainty or possible rejection.  It’s stepping forward into the unknown knees shaking but trusting and knowing you will be lead to where you need to go one step at a time, that you’ll be safe, you have strength, even if it’s a windy path.  Vulnerability is choosing to throw the worry out the window and allow what comes to come when it does and enjoy the moment of what is in the now.  Embrace the unknown like it were a special place to be.

 

I pulled a card for this Full Moon knowing I’d get the Hanged Man card, and sure enough…he showed.  I just knew it.  So I leave with the wisdom of the Hanged Man or the Sacrifice card in the Psychic Tarot deck.

“…This card represents self-sacrifice and a time when you should look around your life to see what needs to be released.  By surrendering and letting go, there will be more room to receive…the rewards for this are transformation, wisdom, gratitude, and enlightenment.  This card signifies that there is a situation happening (or about to occur) in your life, and you can’t control the outcome.  This would be a good time to pause, rest, have patience, reflect and meditate…The Sacrifice Card (or Hanged Man) can also symbolize a period of transition and change.  The solutions you seek may be slow in coming , for it could be necessary to live the answers.  Accept the things that you can’t control, heal and leave the past behind, move toward your future, and watch for new doors opening and paths that are being shown to you.”

I’d would so love it you FOLLOWED MY BLOG 🙂  by checking out my home page.  

 

Thanks so much friends and Happy, Healthy Full Moon 🙂

Crystal

Uncategorized

The December Energies Forecast.

sagittariusThis moon/month has shifted into Sagittarian energy.  YES!!!!   There is an energy of personal power at play here.  Many of us having been feeling drained, emotional,  even irritable from the Scorpio Moon cycle. The inner emotional energies have been rattled so you could awaken last moon.  Stagnation, irritation, lack of joy, these are all messengers that arrived at our door step to inform us to flip the page, make a change, take another road.  Get off the poor powerless me stand-point or the frozen in our foot- steps mark and get things a rollin’ again.  You may have spewed out emotion in the form of shrieks or dinosaur size tears…good!  Get that shit out and listen to why it has arrived.

 

I got all fired up at and it turns out.. it was ultimately at myself.  It came out at my hubby but the reality is I haven’t been taking responsibility for my time and my needs and blamed him.  I must be the card holder to my own destiny, my own wants and needs and lay them on the table in my game of life.

 

Many of us will find ourselves in a situation with some sort of irritant, some sort of issue or person bothering us and this moon will shine down and illuminate your power, your voice, your ability for smart planning.  You’ve been irritated to the core, holding on to these intense emotions, unsure what to do with them, where to put them, how to deal with the source of the irritation.  Perhaps like me you’ve remained frozen, unsure what to do or where to step so you’ve made no steps at all.  This moon, this month, will change that.  The centaur (Sagittarius symbol) with his bow and arrow in hand symbolizes for us the need to focus, set your aim and shoot for what you want!  Use your voice, take the step, make an action.

I pulled a Medicine Card from Jamie Sams deck and got the Opossum card.  Here’s what the Opossum wishes to share…

“Opossum medicine uses a great deal of strategy…It has the ability to fight with its claws and teeth, but it rarely uses this form of protection…If opossum has turned up in your cards, you are being asked to use strategy in some present situation.  Rely upon instincts for the best way out of a tight corner…Oftentimes if you refuse to struggle or show that hurtful words bother you, your taunter will see no further fun in the game….Opossum is beckoning you to use your brain, your sense of drama, and surprise – to leap over some barrier to your progress.”

So this month, make concrete, brain powered, logical plans to balance the inward energies stewing.  The masculine and feminine energies must be balanced, united in a sacred marriage.  Make schedules and strategies and see them through.  Commit to them as though your commitment to these schedules or strategies were symbolic to your commitment to your own self-love.  I’ve had my share of struggles with schedules, I feel locked down my them, chained, caged and my freedom loving Sagittarius soil rebels.  However, these schedules are a must for self-love and manifestation, they are not about imprisonment, they are about love for oneself and our own energy.  You are doing this for you, you are organizing your energy, making plans and taking action to move your soul forward and your heart healing onward.  The worlds needs your expressions so harness it and make it happen!

 

Here are some ideas to help move and organize your energy…there’s a clearing occurring.  Clearing space and time…organizing it so there is no wasting those luscious energy strands. It’s moving it out of your body so the anxiety, the restlessness, the overwhelm can dissipate.

Make a weekly schedule for your life.

Make a weekly menu.

Make a regular date with your soul every week, put it on your schedule.

Make daily to- do lists.

Make concrete plans of action of a sacred task at hand waiting for release and completion.

Schedule in time for your interests…yoga, writing, a new class, dance, soup making…anything!

Clean out drawers, donate clothes.

 

And so it is my friends.  Remember you can absolutely feel free to share.  Also I’d be so honored if you FOLLOWED THE BLOG OR THE WOMEN’S TRIBE FACEBOOK PAGE.  🙂

Photo from : gaiablooming.com