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July New Moon Energy Forecast & Meditation

Y’all enjoying the new moon energy ??  This moon cycle feels like change is ahead.. a change in pattern.  There is a clearing… a letting go… a calling back of our power and a release of the behaviours that don’t serve our highest good. There’s also releases of relationships and changes to the way we act and feel and need within them.   We start to express ourselves more and really focus on ourselves.  We become centre stage of our lives and this is pivotal on our soul path. 

I found myself cleaning out closets today and organizing them, giving away clothes and returning plastic bags for recycling.  There’s a cleaning up going on.  We are creating more space for our Self to emerge in our lives.  There’s also a lot of inner shifting going on.   We feel done participating in lower energentic ways and patterns… enough is enough.  We will not stay in places and connections that no longer feed us or we will stand our ground and express the need for new patterns and forms to take shape and grow in the places we already embody and exist within. 

It’s an interesting point, its like we are in a pocket of clarity and divine focus.  We want our deepest selves in our lives… we are being called back and out of those distractions and roles and patterns that keep us separated from our own inner jewel.

This can cause turbulence during this moon cycle as we change and change our participation in some relationships or roles.  There may me push back or clawing at our feet to pull us back down to lower energy planes.  

Trust .  Participate.  Step forward one step at a time.

New moon practise to carry throughout the entire moon cycle 🙂

A meditation for this months moon cycle.  Close your eyes… take in three to four deep breaths and exhale just as deeply.  Imagine it’s night time and you are sitting at a large fire.  It’s just dark sky and a giant fire in front of you.  An elder Native woman is there with you…she is there to guide and support you.  Imagine calling back all your power as though a bunch of luminous stars start floating back towards you and within you.  Feel how full and peaceful and confident it feels to hold all your own power.  You are strong and full of clarity!! Really let this feeling expand throughout your whole body !!  Let it expand into every cell of your being.  Feel your aura glow and expand.   Sit there and enjoy until you are ready to shift your attention back to your present space.
Happy New Moon!!

Xo

Crystal 

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Y’all enjoying the new moon energy ??  This moon cycle feels like change is ahead.. a change in pattern.  There is a clearing… a letting go… a calling back of our power and a release of the behaviours that don’t serve our highest good. There’s also releases of relationships and changes to the way we act and feel and need within them.   We start to express ourselves more and really focus on ourselves.  We become centre stage of our lives and this is pivotal on our soul path. 

I found myself cleaning out closets today and organizing them, giving away clothes and returning plastic bags for recycling.  There’s a cleaning up going on.  We are creating more space for our Self to emerge in our lives.  There’s also a lot of inner shifting going on.   We feel done participating in lower energentic ways and patterns… enough is enough.  We will not stay in places and connections that no longer feed us or we will stand our ground and express the need for new patterns and forms to take shape and grow in the places we already embody and exist within. 

It’s an interesting point, its like we are in a pocket of clarity and divine focus.  We want our deepest selves in our lives… we are being called back and out of those distractions and roles and patterns that keep us separated from our own inner jewel.

This can cause turbulence during this moon cycle as we change and change our participation in some relationships or roles.  There may me push back or clawing at our feet to pull us back down to lower energy planes.  

Trust .  Participate.  Step forward one step at a time.

New moon practise to carry throughout the entire moon cycle 🙂

A meditation for this months moon cycle.  Close your eyes… take in three to four deep breaths and exhale just as deeply.  Imagine it’s night time and you are sitting at a large fire.  It’s just dark sky and a giant fire in front of you.  An elder Native woman is there with you…she is there to guide and support you.  Imagine calling back all your power as though a bunch of luminous stars start floating back towards you and within you.  Feel how full and peaceful and confident it feels to hold all your own power.  You are strong and full of clarity!! Really let this feeling expand throughout your whole body !!  Let it expand into every cell of your being.  Feel your aura glow and expand.   Sit there and enjoy until you are ready to shift your attention back to your present space.
Happy New Moon!!

Xo

Crystal 

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July Full moon Energy…you ready ??

Happy full moon!!! (Tomorrow).

It has been some time since I’ve written hasn’t it my friends.  I was in a spot of inertia and stuckness and I just didn’t have words.  I was holding a lot of plates in the air and could not find time to express but time and emotion and need is changing this!!

This full moon feels intense… there’s lot going on.  It can feel like a lot of emotional upheaval .  Change is in the air and that can be tough for some of us.  I feel the energy of change around but am just trying to allow space for her energy to move into my life rather than panic and anxiety fill my body.  

This is a time of believing in yourself… in knowing your good , of knowing you are strong and honourable and full of integrity. This is a time trusting yourself and your voice.  The moon shall pull out situations that help you evaluate this of yourself.   Be confident in your expression of your will, your needs, your thoughts, your perspective .  No more silence… no more making peace.  Express and reveal yourself !!!

So pull inward and meet your glorious soul at the depths of your inner world .  Sit and feel your own presence and let that wise one within guide you.  Dance or yoga, sing or draw… do something to connect with that inner voice .   There is no wrong way just entry points .

We may be tested during this time but really the test is about your own self trust and self knowing .  Are you confident in your integrity, your presence in the world.  So dance your wonderful soul sing and exude You !!!  Don’t back down from boundary challenges…now is not the time to get quiet or small.  It’s time to really own and hold your power and trust that you can do this !!! You deserve to.  You have a right to fight for what you believe. 

In the end all will be what we wish… all shall be fulfilled . 

And so it is my moon tribe and friends 🙂

Xo

Crystal

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Fiery Sagittarius Full Moon Ritual

This full moon is a fiery, emotionally charged Sagittarius moon party.  I hit some deep, raw, pockets of pain… of sadness and loneliness…an inner shrieking from my most jeweled depths.  It brought me to a place of deep release ( loud crying sobs ) and also to a place where change is a must. This moon is stirring our souls to evoke change… immediate change.  Get doing, get cracking, get going on the new road.  Maybe it’s a move , or a new job, or a new passion … but a radical change for the better feels like it’s in the horizon.  It’s time to stop gathering and time to start sharing , expressing , creating … outputtin our energies.  I feel the need for a lot of change and it feels kind of exciting .  Some sparks are re-igniting and the inner fire is turning up the heat once again. 
So in this full moon….get active… do something.  Paint… draw… dance… sing.  Work on a project you want to start or get done .  Look for new houses, search for new jobs, sign up for a new class.  We must move our energy outward somehow towards an intent of action .  We are being called and propelled forward.  I’m going to repurpose a piece of furniture tonight.  I haven’t done this in over a year and I really enjoy it.  It’s my act of power for myself and  a new path I am committing to stepping on.  

So on this moon I hope you join me in some sort of action… an act of power .  And so it is my friends. Xo

Crystal 

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A Delightful and Simple April New Moon Ritual.

The new moon has arrived after a tumultuous month of retrogrades and chaos and unearthing of what was/is unhealed within us.  

As I sit with the energy of this moon I keep hearing the word JOY.  Joy, joy, joy.  It’s funny cause one of my good pals and I were discussing how to create more joy in the busyness of raising kids, cooking dinners, soccer, homework etc.  Sometimes the responsibilities of life mutes the colours of joy as we get caught in the web of routine.

I was brought back to the simple question of… “what makes me joyful.” And this is something I really need to discover cause to be honest I don’t quite know.  I know what used to but life has changed and it’s something I need to explore again.

A Delightful New Moon Ritual

So on this new moon I invite you to join me in taking some quiet and sacred space, light a candle, have a cup of tea and put the word JOY at the centre of your page.  Take a few centering breaths and just free flow with what makes you joyful… no thinking just pen flowing and see what comes.

Make a commitment to create pockets of joy in your life.  Maybe throughout the day you take ten minute increments in doing something that ignites your joy or makes you laugh or settles and soothes your soul.

And so it is my friends

Xo

Crystal 

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A Healing Ritual For the April Full Moon

moon lodgeHappy Full Moon Women’s Tribe 🙂  Here we are all the full moon and in the bingo bango bongo of four retrograde planets!  Eekers. It is a time evaluation, of reflection, of looking back at what needs to be healed in the past so we can carry forward with more ease and gentleness in the now and in our futures.  That is the gift of retrogrades.   It’s not always easy as our old stuff emerges and comes to the for front but heck, let’s let it.  Allow it.  Make room for it at the kitchen table as though it were your long lost aunt.  We must honor its’ existence and take a look.  Feel it.  Set it on its’ way…out of body, out of our bones, released from our tissue.

For me, I’ve been lingering in trauma memories.  I thought I had done my healing around this but life and emotional breakdowns, says the healing is not done.When I had my first baby my first husband just didn’t deal with the transition into fatherhood well and basically bailed.  He did it in a manner that was hurtful, in a way he knew best…to cheat and chose another woman.  My highest conscious Self knows that he wasn’t conscious or aware enough to talk and tell me that he was struggling or lost or unsure if he could handle being both a husband and father simultaneously.  And so he left and chose her.  He didn’t know how to say that he could not be who I needed or was asking of him so he acted it out to express it to me.  I get that on a soul level, but it was still emotionally and mentally devastating and one of the most painful experiences of my life.  (As well as the best thing that could have happened in the long run).  I associate having a baby with pain and struggle and loss.

I ended up on my own with baby, in a new apartment (he got the house), lost my job (found another), he got our dogs as he was in the house and me in an apartment.  And there I was in the threshold of new motherhood trying to keep my head above water, wondering if I could support myself and baby, manage motherhood and a full-time job, etc..etc..  It was devastating, so much change all at one time.  It was shocking actually.  I felt really abandoned and alone.  Navigating custody battles when you were wronged and nobody gave a poop was crazy making.  I struggled most with the fact that I could not be with my baby all the time cause of the choice he made, I had to lose time with my son.  I had to share custody.  There was little to no consequence for him or his actions…he got to keep the house (he did have to buy me out), he had his regular job, and he got what he wanted…to be a part-time dad all by betraying our vows, lying, and being with another woman.  I on the other hand got my world shattered and was continually told in court that I had to keep the emotional stuff separate from the custody, like I was not supposed to have feelings for what I went through.   I was treated like the problem, not him.  CRAZY. MAKING!

Anywho…years have passed.  I’m happily remarried with a new baby who’s almost 9months old.  Well my husband has been working out of town for the last few months and I have been on my own with the kids for weeks at a time.  It has totally triggered all those memories.  The emotions, the forgotten dark times, the memories I blocked out…all coming back with a vengeance….to the point I cry and cry and cry.  I’ve done trauma therapy, emotional release work, journalling, creative expression, you name it…I’ve released so much and yet the memories of being on my own with a baby linger in my gut, in my blood, in my immune system.  There is more to be released.

This full moon is asking us to revisit past sore spots and evaluate how they impact the now.  What’s been coming up?  An old relationship?  An old patter of self-sabotage or job loss or endings, break-ups, loss in general?  Allow it my friends. Pull out the chair and have it sit down with you.

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Find a cozy space, light a candle and some incents.  Have a cup of tea or a glass of wine and grab and pen and paper.  We are going to write a letter to ourselves in the past that was struggling (And still has some to release).  We are going to offer this part of ourselves what she needs.

Allow what comes…..but here’s some points to remember to include.

-Honor and recognized and validate your younger self’s feelings and experiences.

-Ask that part of you what she needs.

-Allow her to answer.

-Imagine bringing this part of you to a time in your past where you experienced and received what she is needing.  So if you are needing to feel love or trust, remember a time when you did.  Who’s with you.  What are you doing?  What season is it?   What time of day?  What are you doing together?  What are the smells in the air.  What colors and temperature is it?  Breathe in the sensation of experiencing what she/you needs.  Where do you feel it?  See it as a ball of energy and let it spread throughout your body, allow the feeling to expand and really experience it sensationally for a few minutes.

Write about it…and bring her back now with the memories.

 

Here’s mine.

To my 28 year old self,

First off, I see you. I hear you. I honor you.  I know how much pain you endured and you still carry.  I see it, I feel it, I honor that it’s there.  I think you are so strong for making it, for carrying on, for doing what you need to do to survive and care for your son.  I’m so proud of you.

I know you are struggling, I see you, I feel you, I hear you with all the emotions that you are arising within me….what do you need my love?

I need to feel not so alone…not so abandonned, not so isolated like I have to everything myself.  I feel trapped and caged and scared.  It’s so heavy and painful to carry it all myself.  I can’t believe I have to do this myself.

As I reflect on when I have felt the most supported and loved and held is when I was in Lynn Andrews School.  My classmates were my sisterhood.  And so I bring her to one of our circles and fires where they all gave me healing and love.   They drummed and rattled and held me in loving energy like I never felt before.  I was one of them, and they were part of me.  They held me, they supported me, they were always there for me, even though we lived all over the world.  I let them offer to her what they offered me then.  I imagine her feeling the drum beat and the sound of the rattles….we are in a dark space with candles and fairy lights and the smell of sage burning lingers in the air.  I tell her to let the drum fill her body up with strength and support and to feel the love.  I tell her to look into the fire and hear it crackle and to see how a web of women in the spirit world also connected to her and holding her, the Sisterhood of the Shields, the Grandmothers, her guides, her power animals, her ancestors, the fairies…they are all surrounding her and with her at all times giving her strength and power.   They all have a hand on her shoulder, she is the farthest thing from alone. I ask her to imagine that strength and love and power is like gold dust being sent from everyone in the room and in the energy world to her.  I ask her to imagine it going in her and with each inhale in her body and with each second that passes she is being beamed with the light of strength and sisterhood.

I close my eyes and feel the sensations with her.  I feel the web of women weaving love around me and her supporting us and holding us.    Each drum beat strengthens us with inner power and confidence.   I tell her to see it filling her body, to feel the confidence and love and support.  She does and so do I.  I can see she feels stronger and supported…a shift has happened I feel it in my heart chakra.  I thank everyone at the circle with us for such a powerful experience and I grab her hand and go through a door that lingers in a giant boulder into the now… bringing with us the felt experience and gifts of support and love and strength into the now.  I imagine putting a shawl on her to remind her of the hands that hugged her and literally have and touched her back offering their support.  I allow that image of her feeling stronger with her shawl in my heart to expand and fill my body.

And so it is….

 

Happy FULL HEALING MOON.

xo Crystal

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Aries New Moon Ritual

Happy New Moon and the beginning of the New Astrological Year in Aries.  Woot woot.  The first New Moon in Aries starts another cycle around the zodiac and I always look forward to this moon.  It feels like another New Year feeling, a fresh beginning, a new clean slate.  Spring has begun to wake up and the ice in the river is cracking and the water is slowly starting to flow again.  We are waking up from hibernation and frozen-ness (I know not a word lol).  Life is beginning Her new cycle from death to birth once again.

This winter has been tough on me.  My family has been hit with a ton of sickness.  I sit here writing this with a current bout of pneumonia.  I have lost my sense of power this winter and it has showed up in my lungs, it has come as grief…as I can’t catch my breath remembering.

A circumstance of change threw me into a situation that I hate.  It brought me to my knees and back into painful trauma memories.  I felt like I was barely surviving only treading water and minimally keeping a float for months.  I have waited for the circumstance to change so I can get my power back, my well-being, and my sense of stability.  But the reality it is not changing for awhile.  So I must find my power again on my own.  I feel like I must rummage through a dark field and look for large gems that fell out of my soul, pick them up, put them in my basket and bring them back home.

So here’s the deal, this is a time of transformation and change and turning of the wheel and season.  Life is literally going to re-emerge in front of our eyes.

So plan 1…radical self-care.  I must strengthen my physical body.  I have 10 weeks left in this change of life and I am making weekly self-care goals and plans.  I’m arranging baby-sitters and potential outing/gathering opportunities.  This is part of gathering my soul marbles and gems back into my heart and body.

Plan 2…I have two goals that I want to complete and finish this season.  I will plan goals for this as well…one of them to start is to get ink for my printer as step one!  Its creating space and time and for the next ten weeks I feel called to focus.  Plan.  Start. Do.

What are your plans?

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Light those candles, ignite your incense, invite over a friend or two and get out your paper and pens.  It’s time to dream, to go to the depths and beyond, the other worlds and invoke our lives with NEW LIFE.  So here we go…

Imagine that you are sitting across from A Wise and Loving Guide, a fabulous Intuitive/Seer and she pulls out a tarot deck.  She asks you flip as many cards as you feel you need.  What cards do you flip?  This is a unique deck, perhaps a never before seen deck and it has an image or word meant specifically to you.  There is no right or wrong, just what is.   Flip a card and ask the Wise and Loving Guide to give you a message with each one.  Just let what come, come and see what is there.  What messages do the cards have for you?

Ready, set go…write it out just float to the clouds with your pen.

At the end of your reading with this Wise, Intuitive, Loving Guide gives you a rock with a symbol on it.  What is the symbol?  What does it mean for you?  Grab it and pull it inward into your heart.  Soak in the blessing.

Grab a marker and a rock and make it come alive!!!

When you are done, imagine returning to your own body.  Grab a stone or rub your feet on the ground.

Happy Astrological New Year, and a year FULL OF LIFE and JOY!! And so it is.

xo

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Friction & The March Full Moon.

The energy of this full moon feels a bit intense, wouldn’t you say? I feel restless, annoyed, frustrated, then ok and then frustrated or stuck again and back to ok.  Exhausting !

I pulled a card for this full moon from the Psychic Tarot deck and got a card I’ve never had before.  Kinda fitting.  

The card is called accelerated motion.  It feels like we are being propelled or pulled into the new even though we are in the midst of struggle or change.

It’s easy to resist change it’s uncomfortable and often we must walk through doors or circumstances that we don’t enjoy to get to where we want to go.  These transition spots are tough but crucial in the change process… if not pivotal and instrumental in the transformational success or not.  So breathe through them… scream through them, cry and let out the pain of the transitions.  Celebrate the good moments …enjoy the sun, sip your luscious coffee intentionally, love your babies or puppies, breathe in the fresh crisp air.  Suckle in the good when it’s there… even just for moments. Put on your bright lipstick and stick this out !

For me…my family has experienced a change where my husband is away working for ten days at a time .  I’m struggling to accept this.  I hate it and can’t quite move into just accepting it .  So today amidst my struggling resistance I sat myself down and asked spirit… “What is the gift of this six month change? ”

I heard… “we’ve created room for you to focus on you and your writing, to finish what you’ve been waiting to finish for years (my holistic recovery program that’s in the final stages).  This is the gift of this struggle … so own it and do it!  The time is now .”

 It’s busy with taking care of my kids but the gift of being busy is that my time is very intentional and scheduled. I’ve had to get my butt organized and focused  – two things I tend to struggle with when I have lots of time on my hands.

So even though circumstances aren’t perfect or even shittay’ …these challenging times create friction. Friction creates heat that can turn into fire and transform things in an instant.   That’s when we change… when we are so uncomfortable we want to!  We do what it takes to get out of the doorway of hell. 

If this moon could speak she’d say that she’s summoning up some friction to get things moving… like really moving .  She’s lighting a fire under our resistant butts to get going on the new path.  We are being called forward like never before…we must arise now!  The Sacred Feminine is howling to me so strongly that when I sit and write with Her, tears fall down my cheeks because my heart feels so full in Her presence .  

So embrace the struggle, the uncomfortable feelings, the frustration, the anger, even the sadness and let it propel you into forward motion .  Get intentional! Get clear.  Get organized.  Get doing and going.

Grandmother moon bows and winks at you even during your struggle and friction.  You are not alone, not even close, you are simply being called forward!

And so it is 🙂

Crystal xo

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Some Sacred Feminine 101 for International Women’s Day.

goddess4In honor of International Women’s Day I feel called to share with you some basic teachings of the Sacred Feminine…a general flavoring of what it is…what it feels like.  And so it is 🙂

Back in my early twenties, I hadn’t heard of the Sacred Feminine, I had no idea what it was or what it meant.  But the words Sacred and Feminine lingered in my aura like a puff of smoke I really wanted to inhale.  My soul recognized them even though my mind did not.

I learned about Feminism and studied feminist approaches to counselling but Sacred Feminine was new territory.  It started with a book I read by Lynn Andrews called The Tree of Dreams.  Lynn Andrews is shamaness and teacher (Writer of Medicine Woman and many other books) her words, her stories spoke to me in a way that I was unveiling and discovering myself.  I couldn’t wait to get home from work and pick up her words and suck them into my body and soul.  They evoked a remembering in me, a filling of a deep hole that longed to be filled.  The wild call from my soul that had been attempting to dial me up my entire life finally found its’ way to my ears and I had no choice but to hear it.  She lead me to the trail.  I eventually apprenticed under Lynn Andrews for four years and became Earth Steward, Minister and Healer under her Sacred Feminine teachings from the Sisterhood of the Shields.  (This is a whole other post lol)

So for those of you new to the concept of the Sacred Feminine or those of you dipping your toes into the beautiful realm, or those of you swimming in the pool of the Feminine, I honor you all for expanding and remembering a consciousness the world so desperately needs at this moment in time.

For me….I grew up in a religion that had masculine/patriarchal roots that told me that my body was the place of sin and weakness and that body and flesh should not be trusted as it was prone to over indulgence and wild longings that could take over my character, morals and life.  As a sensitive, intuitive, strongly emotional young girl I didn’t know how to carry this teaching and exist with it in my life.  I interpreted it to mean all my emotions, my desires, my sensuality, my sexuality, and urges were sinful, wrong, all the fundamental, primal elements of myself were shameful and could not be trusted.  I was taught as most of us are in our current world, not to trust my body.  I became disembodied…disconnected from the most fundamental, natural, primal elements and internal guidance within me.  I wasn’t supposed to listen to myself, I was supposed to follow the pre-determined rules and keep quiet.

These teachings put me up against my own self and body, and for me filled me with the idea that I am not enough, I’m flawed, I’m unloveable, I’m wrong, I’m damaged and I’m weak simply for having a body. So I shut down, I controlled, I obsessed, I calorie counted and eating disordered my way into an unconscious expression of the battle between my mind and soul.  I caged my wild, feminine roots and essence away for I thought she could not be trusted,  I thought she was wrong for existing, I thought she was not welcome simply by the fact she was not acknowledged or celebrated or encouraged to develop and grow. I did not consciously know that this was occurring  nor that I even had a wild, feminine soul deep within me, I simply had a deep feeling of emptiness, a craving for something I could not put my finger on or fill.  I knew without knowing that I was missing something, I just did not know what.  I had a deep, dark hole and an ache in my gut.  I thought it was a character flaw and a weakness that I could not just follow the rules and do life and be okay.  I just wanted to be normal but knew I wasn’t, something was different in me…in my DNA, in my structure. At the time I thought it was a bad thing, a lacking…I see now it was a knowing I had not yet discovered.

As I a look back I see now it was my feminine soul, my wise, emotional, intuitive body loudly and boldly expressing that I lost contact to my feminine essence.  And in doing so I lost connection to my body, my emotions, my intuition, my creativity, my ability to be….  me.  I acted out this loss of body/soul connection as an eating disorder and it also carried with it anxiety and depression….all natural feelings from losing yourself I’d say…yes?!

When you least expect it, or barely notice, the Sacred Feminine howls to you and  begins to call you home.  Synchronicity occurs and She finds her way to you subtly….first through restless, anxious energy calling you inward, or perhaps even depression.  Or a struggle with eating disorders or weight obsession or too much boozin, trying to make you look at why you’ve been acting out your pain.  She continues to howl for you and sooner or later a book comes your way or a dream evokes a remembering or a class you take leads you to Her trail or you meet a gal who digs the Divine Feminine 😉 and boom the lightning strikes and you remember!  Your heart cracks open with ancient, soul remembering that has been around for thousands of years.

And in Her essence (The Sacred Feminine Energies) there’s so much to learn, so much uncloaking, and shedding and releasing what never quite fit you in the first place.  There’s a lot of removal of the masks and shirts and fancy jackets we put on in the world and a diving deep into our naked, raw bodies instead.  The shedding can be painful but its’ also sparked with so much inner excitement and inner knowing of something much deeper, much more primal and inwardly wild.  It’s felt by feeling full for the first time ever, like a tasting of what peace feels like in a cup.  It’s a feeling being connected and lit up like the brightest firework you every did see and knowing you found your path home.

Spirit comes through your body, your body is Spirit in form…your intuition, your emotions, your body sensations are messengers from you’re own highest Self and the Divine and you learn that you never meant to abandon the very body Creation gave you to discover, feel and sensually inhale all the luscious, vibration, sensation evoking feelings that every dam thing all around you could offer.  You were meant to learn how to follow your body’s lead as Sacred Messenger, not sinner, not weakness but Divine Guider/Goddess of your soul’s desires, your soul’s path, your soul’s must do in this lifetime.

Your body is like your soul’s compass on the path to soul completion and gift sharing in this world.  She will signal to you when it feels oohhhhh so good and when it feels oh so wrong.  That gut instinct that says no or something doesn’t feel right and when things just flow in the most auspicious ways.   Spirit is felt inside, in stillness, in the body, in excitement, in peace, in anger, in fear, it uncertainty….Spirit is everywhere, especially in your body.

So on this International Women’s Day I honor ALL women and the SACRED FEMININE in all of us (both men and women).  I honor your sacred body as a place to start the remembering. I honor all of us women for all the feminine qualities we carry and move in to the world….the creativity, the nurturing, the loving, the connecting, the igniting of magic and joy we do.

And so it is sisters 🙂

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It’s an Emotional Time – Write it Out :)

Lately, things have been tough on my end.  It’s been an intense New Year, filled with challenges, exhaustion and illness.  My son had pneumonia, my husband has been out of town working and I’ve been left to deal with the pockets of old trauma that keeps bubbling up from my past.

I have slept very little for the last six weeks due to my son’s (six months old) pneumonia.  I’ve had to “sleep” (I use this term loosely) sitting up with him laying on my chest, so he can breathe more easily.  His bouts of horrible coughing would occur anywhere between every half our to every two hours.  He is finally clearing it out.

I got pushed way past my physical, emotional, spiritual and mental limits and I did what I always do…  I did it anyways, I struggled, I didn’t ask for help when I should have and I landed in a hole of despair.  I’ve been addicted to struggle and pain a lot in my life, like it’s my norm.  Somehow it seems in my crooked thinking that it is noble, strong, and more badge worthy to struggle….badge worthy?!  What badges you ask….hell if I know ! LOL 🙂

Many of us are moving through some emotional intensity and struggle right now.  And what I’ve learned from my own is that we are being asked to do it differently, to heal in its grip, to let go…to lighten and free ourselves of the old stuck ways.

I put on what I think is my superhero cape and try and accomplish the impossible on my own…only to usually fall into an extreme exhaustion and despair and then resentment and a full blown pity party for not having help.  It’s my own fault, I don’t ask for it…I really struggle with this and I take the long, hard road that fills me with the most thorns.  Enduring pain became like a misguided map of strength for me.  It feeds into this wounded belief that I’m all alone, I only have myself to survive.  I’ve depended on it my whole life and yes at times it has helped but now it hinders my life.  It cracks open these awful, painful memories and emotions of abandonment and struggle from my past and I get frozen in the doom.  I leak tears and tears for days until I somehow snap out of it.  It’s time…I’m changing that old story!  I am not alone, I can count on people, I do have love and support from others.

To get out of this despair and exhaustion that leaves me weak at me knees, I’ve had to ask for help. I’ve had to pad my life up with support…getting a cleaner, exploring a mother’s helper or part-time nanny, getting babysitters, and that alone dries up the pools of doom.  I don’t feel so alone with support nets around me.

So let’s take a little emotional road on the page…yes?

 

EMOTIONAL PURGE ON THE PAGEwriting

-So what old belief systems are your emotions cracking open?  What is your current struggle?  What emotions are surfacing…why and when?

-What old archetypes/masks/personas have you used to survive that no longer serve a great purpose?  What patterns of thinking and behaving come from these personas?  What emotions are they masking?  For me it was superwoman/perfectionist and victim…they mask my fear for vulnerability….of needing help….like it will somehow make me unlovable and alone.  It comes from my past marriage when I was in a post-partum depression and I was ultimately abandoned and betrayed in my most vulnerable state.  The emotions of that time linger in my body…the devastation…the grief….they have been summoned out right now.  And it’s ok…it’s intense but it’s ok.  I am loved now…I am with a good man.  I am struggling yes but he holds and supports me in that.

Where, how, and when can you access love and support?

Are there images that give you hope and strength…as well as a sense of love and support?  See them…imagine them and send them into your body.  Feel them circulating in your body and feel all the strength, love , support and hope fill your cells and ignite and release the joy already inside of you.  

For me I see sunshine and rainbows, a tribe of women around me, ceremonial fires and circles….igniting alive what all fell asleep or burned out within me.  My heart expands, settles and softens in the presence and felt sense of these images.

 

And so it is friends 🙂

xo

Crystal

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