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This image really spoke to me for this first Full Moon of the year. With Venus and Mercury in retrograde things are still somewhat unclear and unsettled. Emotions are heightened right now, I feel prickly and a touch agitated. I feel like I’m in the cabin waiting to see what the snow storm will bring, what it will blow away and what it will look like post winter storm. It has been a process of surrendering, of deep surrender to the Divine and trusting that She will guide us to where we are supposed to be. Each time I think an opening occurs for me to walk through, I am guided away from the opening and must surrender my will. I have to let go of the gift I thought that came. I am letting go a little each day by meeting and accepting what is today, in this moment without resistance but showing up with faith and trust. I do have deep trust in the Divine and know the Goddess will flow what She wants in my life and for my life towards me and she has definitely cleared out all that is no longer in alignment. It has been a deep surrender of my ego, my will , my presumptions, even relationships, and a letting go and surrendering what I thought was mine. This full moon is one of surrender and trust. It is a blowing of star dust out of your hand and trusting the Universe is at work, even when it doesn’t come how you think or what you was coming takes a turn away from you . Peer out the window and see what this Full moon brings, where the snow settles and what the winds bring in. 💕
There is a deep purification going on, anything that is not is alignment with our deepest truth and vibration is falling away. This can include our friendships, places of work, places of living, activities, beliefs, thoughts, ideas, behaviours. It is intense and difficult at times. Do balance the painful with light by doing your daily gratitude lists. Remember that there is deep spiritual cleansing and learning happening and ultimately that is why we have come here. Breathe into and know that the shifting is really beginning , new awareness and clarity is emerging !!
Happy Full Moon! It’s the last full moon of the year and it’s an intense one. It’s a time of deep cleansing, releasing, purging of the old. It’s a time of naming what no longer fits, what no longer reflects our deepest truth and setting intentions to move forward to the new. For me it’s been an intense month, a time of deep reflection and contemplation of what I want and what no longer serves my highest purpose. There has been a real spiritual cleansing.
Have you ever felt so depleted, burnt out, empty and tired that you just couldn’t do one more day like you did your last ? Me too! I’m in the dark cavernous depths of burnout. I can’t believe I’m here...but as I sit and lay and collapse into stillness and pause it is so clear why I am. My life lost space for me in my own life. It was always about others, my kids, my hubby, my house jobs, groceries and on and on and on. There was only to do lists and no be-ing, no playing, no leaving messes and jobs that must be done. I have pushed forward and onward for so long that the tank eventually emptied. This week I am just focusing on being with myself and trying to resuscitate my soul back into aliveness. I don’t even know what I want and need these days but each day the whispers from within get a bit louder, a bit clearer and I can almost make out the sound. I’ve decided to be in retreat.. well decided is a term I use loosely... my body forced me if I’m honest. My heart and soul need tending and that is what I am focused on for 21 straight days. I need life breathed back into me with rest, meditation, walks outside, candles, Christmas light, music, creativity, painting, journaling and reflecting. I’m creating space to hear my own inner voice, my soul and that of Spirit so I can repair the leaking soul tank inside my body. Life sure is a funny thing sometimes but I am always reminded of Spirit, even when I ignored Her nudges, she walloped me back into Truth and stillness. And as I fill myself back up with the life force energy of being and rest I wish for you that each day you breathe into your own soul even just a little. What are ways you breathe life back into your soul? List them and do them . Each day on these 21 days I journal with a word or two of the day and I allow an image to emerge. And so it is ❄️💕
This past month has been something hasn’t it??!! With Mercury and Jupiter in retrograde, it has felt like endless roadblocks, hills, pot holes and twists and turns. Alas Mercury and Jupiter have come out of retrograde and things feel like they are getting clearer. We are finding our footing again.
Autumn, change, transmutation, and change again. I feel like so much of my life is ready to dissolve, to change, to transmute to something new. And it scares the shit out of me. One day I’m excited at the possibility, the next I’m terrified and clinging on to the old like I were grasping to life on a log floating at sea. Why am I so afraid of change ? Well, I think it’s the perfectionist part of me that is afraid to make a mistake... a million what if’s shoot out of my brain waves all in the negative direction. When I move to my centre and ask my highest vibrational Self what change and this new direction feels like...I feel peace, calm, an acceptance of life that is full of endings and new beginnings and they are welcomed as experiences to grow life right. There is nothing attached to the change, it just is... not good, not bad but just lovely cause I’m meeting what is with acceptance. In a mediation my guide gave me a beautiful yellow leaf to help me find balance and harmony with this change. The leaf told me she once was a beautiful bud on the branch limb, she exuded her beauty and green, life shining color and oxygen inducing gifts in spring, now to she is a beautiful golden leaf on the ground. She is still in the state of beauty and harmony amidst mother Earths natural changes and life/seasonal cycles. She told me she will soon disintegrate back into the ethers of the Earth and be energetically sucked back up into the roots of the trees only to bloom again in spring. She trusts Life, she trusts life’s cycles, and she always holds and maintains joy and beauty and grace in no matter what form she is in or what state of the seasonal cycle she is facing. So here’s to allowing re-evaluating, changing, transmuting to something simpler, lovelier, calmer, newer... different.. endings and beginnings. There is a purification and cleansing going on that is stripping away anything that is not in alignment with soul... and just like the yellow leaf it can be beautiful if we allow it. We also allow in the endings and loss and change of things and people that are no longer in alignment. Darkness carries beautiful light and clarity too.