Happy Full Moon!! These last few weeks have felt challenging, haven’t they? With mercury in retrograde, I have had many challenges with communication and deadlines, and trying to finalize plans has been an extraordinary challenge. And yet, deep down I held onto a knowing that all things shall work out as they are meant to, even though they may not turn out how I thought or planned. That’s a tough space to stay in, but I kept breathing my way back to that centred truth each time I flailed into panic or worry.
And on the flip side of that my relationship has been going through a real challenge. Many root issues have re-arisen. To be honest we may be at a make or break point and it’s scary. I feel like many of us are at this point and many relationships are being shaken loose to do what they are supposed to do…help heal us. Healing ourselves through the containers of relationships brings us closest to our Selves and the Divine.
Although this head space is hard energy to stay in and explore. Here’s what I know…I have fallen back into co-dependent patterns. I have over-stepped my boundaries trying way to hard to push my ideas of how to help my husband heal. I have tried to tell him and show him how I think he should explore his deeper Self and his untouched stuff. I have shifted my focus onto him and his flaws rather than express what I’m needing and where I’m not doing so hot. There are big pieces he has to address as well and I’m powerless in the outcome of if he does or not. He needs to for our survival and I need to do my work for our survival but the reality is this…I only have control of what I can do. The rest I have to let go; and I fucking hate that lol! I have a hard time with that. I want to force him and push him and manoeuvre him onto the healing path. And yet, it’s the one thing I can’t do. It brings up so much stuff for me too…can I trust a man to actually follow through? Will a man actually do healing work? I don’t trust men to follow through or change or heal, that is an underlying belief and pattern of stickiness for me. I am not sure I believe a man will be brave enough to step into vulnerability and face his darkness, own it and heal it and yet I know that those men do exist.
Luckily on this Full Moon, the Power Card has found its’ way to me from the Psychic Tarot by John Holland. It offers the following…
“As a spiritual being, you have unlimited power at your command. This card represents inner strength, willpower, courage, compassion, generosity and love. At any moment, these beautiful qualities can assist you in coping with an adverse condition in front of you, or the many surrounding in your life. Set aside the necessary time to resolve such issues. Power represents more than physical, external strength; it can also be channeled emotionally, mentally and spiritually. When you have balance over mind, body and soul – and with the power of spirit – anything can be overcome to achieve a positive result.
Power and Strength can be developed to work in harmony in any given situation. Every obstacle, every error helps build your knowledge and understanding of the world around you. When you make a mistake, it’s chance for you to stop, listen and ask yourself: What am I supposed to be learning here, and how can I make this situation better? Mistakes are wake-up calls, in that they provide you with opportunities to discover your weaknesses, what needs to be changed, and which areas of your life need improving. Equally, they can blessings in disguise. Just remember: you are power!“
Full Moon Healing Ritual:
So on this full moon that seems to be full of discord and disharmony and challenges….we are asked to clear the way…to go deeper and understand these challenges as learning opportunities and inner growth portals to our Divine Selves. So I invite you join me in lighting some candles, burn some incents or sage or infuse some oils and gather your pen and paper and meet me on the page.
Let us ask. (about a challenge or challenges at hand in life at the moment)…
What would inner strength say?
What would willpower say?
What would courage say?
What would compassion say?
What would love say?
What would generosity say?
And lastly….What am I supposed to be learning here, and how can I make this situation better? (pg 42)
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With warmth and well wishes,
And so it is,