Here we are at the Aries New Moon. A new astrological year. It is said it’s also a super moon, so this one feels more intense than usual.
The energies at this juncture are interesting. I’m full of piss and vinegar, I want to get stuff done, get stuff going, get things off the ground. I’m spring cleaning (more releasing and getting rid of stuff) like crazy. It could be a nesting phase but it’s also energetic I’m prepping, changing and clearing old energies for new ones.
I have 3 Spirit Masks I’ve made, all very similar. Dark blue with stars, feathers, sparkles…and I feel the urge to burn them..to transcend them from a separate entity of me to an embodiment within me as they turn to ash. This is what this New Moon is calling of us…TRANSCENDENCE…CHANGE…it’s an invocation from the dark to light!
Yet there is still some darkness tonight, some aching of an old wound. I’m going to be re-entering the place I was most wounded in my life. When I had my son over 6 years ago, my world as I knew it collapsed. My marriage ended in a traumatic way, I lost my house, my dogs, everything that surrounded me collapsed and crumble. It all died.
And here I am about a couple months away from birthing again. I’ve rebuilt my life. I have a new marriage, a new house, a new way of doing everything about my life. It is 100% more authentic, built from my soul bones and yet the memory of the old pain, the trauma, the severe wounding lingers. My wounded self, my ego wonders if it will happen again. Will it crumble this time? Will I make it through? What does marriage and children look like in peace and calm and not survival and earth shattering loss?
It calls my vulnerability forth, the raw ache and memory of what happened but the fear envelops me and eats me alive like a savage beast. I want re-assurance, a guarantee, I want safety and perfection of my husband and that is not fair. I feel like I’m padding up with memory foam and duck taping it to every limb on my body. I want us to be perfect, to communicate like professionals, to never be cranky or impatient, to live in this illusionary safe bubble of perfection so the possibility of me having to go through another life collapse feels smaller. It is not a great way, it is the fearful way. It is taking it’s toll on me and on him.
This New Moon, feels like a call forward. A howl from Grandmother Moon herself asking me to peel off the padding, release the fear and walk forward, onward in faith, in trust both in myself and my husband.
“What if you put the sword down?” she whispers to me.
What if I did walk forward with a knowing that it will be okay, whatever happens. I’m sure it will be totally fine but I do know too that I can make it regardless of what happens. I am one strong cookie and the universe, the Grandmothers, the lucky stars…they all have my back. Creation, love, the Earth Mother, they all got me and so does my husband. I just need to stop swinging my sword in anticipation of doom and of death.
The reality is this…I am bringing in LIFE! That is what this Aries New Moon, this first New Moon of the zodiac is about… LIFE!! What do you want in your life?? Remove the cloak of doom and see LIFE!!!
Light those candles, ignite your incense, invite over a friend or two and get out your paper and pens. It’s time to dream, to go to the depths and beyond, the other worlds and invoke our lives with NEW LIFE. So here we go…
Imagine that you are a Seer, a magical, intuitive Seer. You can see the life you want for the next year, the best things will happen, everything you want occurs….tell me what do you see???? How are these things occurring, what are you doing to help them along? (Listen, she will tell you ) 🙂
Ready, set go…write it out just float to the clouds with your pen.
At the end of your reading with yourself as Seer, your magical, intuitive, goddess self gives you a rock with a symbol on it. What is the symbol? What does it mean for you? Grab a marker and a rock and make it come alive!!!
When you are done, imagine returning to your own body. Grab a stone or rub your feet on the ground.
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Happy Astrological New Year, and a year FULL OF LIFE and JOY!! And so it is.
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