Don’t you wish happiness would just find itself in your life, like a magical spell from the butt end of a magic stick and boom…happiness and bliss. Awe well, we know that’s not how she works!
You gotta make yourself happy, you have to approach life how She is and hug it out. Embrace it. Love it. Own it like you are trusting the Divine Plan for you and your soul.
I know, I know, you are not in the best job, maybe not in the best relationship or making the best amount of money. I say, own it! Love it! Indulge and roll around in what is like it was the best, most perfect scenario for you at this moment. Love it like it were a special letter sent from the Divine directly to you. Would you receive it lovingly or demand more?
Now this doesn’t mean we can’t want more or be on a path towards our ultimate. Yes, let’s do that…definitely!! All I’m saying is don’t hate the stepping stone you are on at this time. In fact, I’m saying love it with all your might.
Happiness is a choice, an action, a decision to see with ultimate trust in the Divine plan for you, or you can put on the ugly, fugly, grumpy glasses and choose another sight. Are you a bowl of cherries or a well of negativity?
When I first go divorced I had to take some jobs that I didn’t love just so I could support myself and my new baby out on my own. I could have been bitter, and truthfully there may have been days I was, but I chose to appreciate what those jobs offered me at the time knowing they would not be my forever jobs. I didn’t always feel great doing them or at the end of the day felt depleted but instead of feeding into that negativity, that pitty party, I would did deep and journal (well at least on most days). Sometimes I’d have to journal mid tears, in my car at lunch hour to remind myself that this is not permanent and there are gifts among the challenge. My tear drops would hit the pages as I’d refocus my soul on the good in the less than great scenario. I tell ya, those challenging experiences fed my confidence and trust in myself like nothing else could. I am far more secure and confident in life and the universe as a whole as well as in my instincts than I ever was because of those less than ideal situations.
Amidst the painful and even dreadful days at times, I’d journal on what the jobs did provide me such as a solid income to pay my rent, bills, food, car, diapers, etc. It provided me stability while I worked on building a new foundation with life out on my own, now with a child. It gave me freedom to leave my unhealthy, hurtful marriage.
There is happiness everywhere if we can choose to clean the dirt off the gem we are holding in our hands.
Even now, I struggle in relationships, I’m an airy, fairy who loves her freedom. I need it. I hate being tied down, I’ve actually grown to be too independent, that I’ve at times closed my heart. I’ve used independence as a shield, as a defense, as a protection for not needing anybody. Relationships are my portals to soften my heart, ask for help, soften my protection and ultimately heal my wound in trusting men to be loving, consistent, caring, solid creatures that will love and protect.
So that means, my relationship isn’t perfect because it’s a container of my healing, it’s mirroring to me my sore spots and areas I need more work. I shall repeat, it ain’t perfect. Haha! I get in my airy, fairy mode and at times crave being on my own, not because I don’t love my new husband, but because it is my defense. It’s my comfort zone, I like full blown wing expanding freedom to soar out in the world my way, on my terms and on my own clock. It’s easier, more self indulgent, more me, me, me. So when I get all crotchedy in my relationship I journal the gift of it. What great things does it bring? What am I learning and healing in this moment? Maybe it’s how to properly express myself, or voice my needs or learning to be less selfish. Is it always easy…hell no! As I’m sure many of you can relate. It takes work, commitment, sacrifice, attention, presence, choice, action, responsibility. All those things that are not always a walk in the park.
However, this marriage, this relationship, this man, has provided me with the most amount of love, of healing, of consistency or trust than I have ever had in my lifetime. The gifts of this marriage far out weigh life on my own with my airy, fairy wings never fully committing to anything. Isn’t that what it’s all about? I’ll learning to balance my gypsy soul while being a wife and mother. It’s redefining womanhood for me. And you know what, it’s what sparks my soul! It is my art…learning to live as a wild, tribal, vibrant soul in this modern day world. It’s redefining traditional roles into new realms, new expansions, new expressions. It`s discovering how to walk with Aliveness even in the mundane. It’s redefining Feminine and everything that goes with it. It’s powerful and intense and blissful and dreadful and everything in between. Now that’s happiness!
So happiness is perhaps a choice, an embracing of the gifts and lessons we are learning in this precious moment with people, circumstances, scenarios that can help our souls heal and expand out into the world. It’s about squeezing the good, happy juices out of whatever circumstance that is less than perfect in our minds. The Divine offers us these moments and realities as gateways to the next stone. When you learn the lessons and gifts and find the joy on the leap pad you are on, you get to move on forward, it’s simply universal law.
So stretch your happy muscles and find the good, no the great in the challenging circumstances. Where are you struggling and what are the gifts of the struggles or the imperfections in your work, love life, financial situation or boring old routine? Do share!! 🙂
That is today’s Day 16 of the 30 Day Wild, Luscious, Soulful Living Challenge. (Had some technical difficulties yesterday, sorry folks)